Stressed at home by the fam
I can still feel the throbbing n my neck. The air at the top of my throat is really hot the area right where the jaw hinges hurts and the jaw feels somewhat stiff. The very front of my forhead into the templs had a dulling constant pain. Everytime i talk i feel the tension building up. My mouth is really dry. It's almost one of those days where I woke up in the morning and I'm like.. shoot.. I'm still alive.. well that sucks.
This is the result of being at home. It's a shame when you think to yourself.. I wish something in this world would hurt me.. put me near death.. so I'd have an excuse not to work and try so hard. So that my parents couldn't be constantly on me. So that the tension headaces would go away.. So I wouldn't remain hidden in my room all the time.
I just wanna talk to someone. under regular basis.. kinda pawing through all this. I want to destress. I want the burning in my neck/jaw area to stop. It's the same stuff I go over all the time. I feel trapped by my family. Kinda makes me wish I had an apartment next year.. so I'd start there over the summer. Not have to worry about coming home ever again. I'd send them a car for birthdays and christmas. THat's be the extent of my communications until I can unwind.
I've noticed lately I've felt like I'm suffocating mores. Like I just aren't getting enough fresh air into my lungs. I open the windows wide as possible.. get a fan in the room. and take a deep deep breath until I feel like a bubble forming in my lungs. Like swallowing air byt the galloons. It helps the burning go away.
At least I'm feeling better now the deep breathing usuall helps. Now to avoid the mom. Kidna hard since we live in the same house.
This is the result of being at home. It's a shame when you think to yourself.. I wish something in this world would hurt me.. put me near death.. so I'd have an excuse not to work and try so hard. So that my parents couldn't be constantly on me. So that the tension headaces would go away.. So I wouldn't remain hidden in my room all the time.
I just wanna talk to someone. under regular basis.. kinda pawing through all this. I want to destress. I want the burning in my neck/jaw area to stop. It's the same stuff I go over all the time. I feel trapped by my family. Kinda makes me wish I had an apartment next year.. so I'd start there over the summer. Not have to worry about coming home ever again. I'd send them a car for birthdays and christmas. THat's be the extent of my communications until I can unwind.
I've noticed lately I've felt like I'm suffocating mores. Like I just aren't getting enough fresh air into my lungs. I open the windows wide as possible.. get a fan in the room. and take a deep deep breath until I feel like a bubble forming in my lungs. Like swallowing air byt the galloons. It helps the burning go away.
At least I'm feeling better now the deep breathing usuall helps. Now to avoid the mom. Kidna hard since we live in the same house.