Unfortunately for her, I already have another cat, Heidi. I got her nearly 4 years ago, as a friend for Merlin. But I've never loved her as I did him. We don't have the same bond by any stretch of the imagination, and she is everything Merlin wasn't, in all the bad ways, and none of the good things that Merlin was. She's stroppy, and moody. She pees on the laundry, claws the carpets and furniture, she begs for food and raids the garbage can. She's greedy and selfish, and has scratched Damien and Merlin more times than I can count. Whereas Merlin never had any of those habits. He was gentle, and patient, loyal and kind, and never lifted a claw to anyone or anything. Not even when a stray tom was beating the crap out of him last summer, and broke his foot and gave him bloody poisoning so bad he nearly died.
I keep looking at Heidi now and resenting her for being here when Merlin isn't. It's all I can do to stroke her. I don't want to see her, hear her or touch her right now. And I know it's not her fault, and I'm being unfair and irrational, but it's how I feel. And if I can't snap out of it soon, I'll be rehoming her, because it's unfair on her to be resented in that way.
I keep looking at Heidi now and resenting her for being here when Merlin isn't. It's all I can do to stroke her. I don't want to see her, hear her or touch her right now. And I know it's not her fault, and I'm being unfair and irrational, but it's how I feel. And if I can't snap out of it soon, I'll be rehoming her, because it's unfair on her to be resented in that way.
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