(no subject)
hmmm... some people write some pretty interesting stuff in their journal entries. Very thoughtful and deep and all that and no bullshit. It's surprising they're so open really. Point is, reading this one kinda prompted me to attempt to list some slightly meaningful stuff tonight, stead of...stuff. Kinda changed my mood really. not badly though.
Anyway... lets see. I'll start out listing regular happenings first. Thanksgiving break starts after this tuesday (techincally today's) classes. I miss some classes as usual past few weeks but I've been networking with e-mail n stuff for notes and homework in the 4 classes (12 credits) i got right now, and am actually doing pretty good i think, prolly all As. This is due to some skill, nice&smart people/classmates, and luck. Like I said before, things kinda go smooth for me. This is one of the few things i got, my grades. I mean, not depressingly like all that, that's not my style. But what I mean is: compared to some other ppl's accomplishments and ambitions, I ain't doin much else. Everyone else, or most seem to have problems with grades but are good with other stuff. Ain't to say i haven't done that much, just... want to improve myself, I want to become stronger and more powerful, but at the same time, I'm not saying I'm not happy as well also.
There are many ambitious and active ppl in this college atmosphere. heh..sometimes the fast pace many others around here take actually gets on my nerves, since I got a more slow going entish personality in doing things. (I like to do a lot of stuff, but take my time doing it, and not perform anything drastic) problem is, being human that only lives 100 some years tops, and living in today's world where they say once yer out of college n shit yer stuck working some job the rest of yer life, i really can't afford to be like elves or ents. ah well. I never really believed all what todays world thinks anyway, so i can prolly compromise it some. hehe shit, the ppl who i think are active, ambitious, and talented some of em actually self-doubt themselves in their own journal, and prolly thoughts themselves. What's that say bout me, i could think.
Thing is though, not to brag, but I'm a pretty wise guy. I can see through to the heart of things. Most every or many ppl with deeper thoughts, (like many intelligent ppl, or college population ppl or anyone occasionaly for that matter) always self-doubt themselves n got their own problems, and even a highly successful person has doubts and possibly can have them to the point of being more unhappy than the laziest hobo. haha. As Yoshimitsu says: "Suffering of the ages, cometh in infinite forms."
What I mean is though is that you have to attempt to be happy while attempting to improve yerself at the same time. I kind of have faced both extremes in my life in wrestling, work, school, etc.. Working extremely hard to improve yerself.. is good actually. Being happy is good too. Laziness is not good, and neither is unhappiness. Work and happiness don't usually go hand in hand u'd think. That's the way i thought for a long time too, fore I perfected my continued philosophies. Ambition, and self improvement are things u should strive for completely, but you should not self-doubt yerself, pity yerself, fear failure, or think one must be unhappy ever. U should strive for inner peace and happiness, but you should not ever become lazy, lack lustered, lose ambition, or basically be like a fuckin hippie.
because it's fun to me i think I'll kinda list some minor examples. The person of whose journal I read that inspired this entry tonight, was a young very ambitious, and active person. Extremely Friendly and knew what they liked and enjoyed in life. They were doing well, but at the end of the entry the person mentions how they were self doubting themselves, how they thought they would vanish from existence without being meaningful, how life passes so fast and how college is "best years of yer life" (this particular line, due to excessive uses by many ppl and possible untrueness, i think is a piece of crap, just the line not the ppl who use it, can't blame them) yea..anyway we've all heard this type of stuff before, prolly lot of ppl said similar things themselves before. Thing is you don't need all those self doubting thoughts at the end, not to say yer doing fine and you can stop and take a break in life, but continue to do the best you can, but be happy along the way and never doubt yerself once is how i think ppl should think to get the most out of life. Kinda like Kazuma from "Scryed".
On the other side, there are some who are too content with what they have, and have true happiness and peace with the bumm lifestyle. (Quote from BOAs) This second half is good, but too many times ppl like this, such as a certain hobo we all know, tend to be slightly less motivated to continue to improve themselves as much. (I think I also am somewhat lenient towards this state at the current moment)
I remember my dad talking to me and my bro when we were lifting stones and putting in the new patio in back of the house. Art had been lifting way too many stones at one time, he was doing good n gettin more done than me of course till he dropped some and broke em. I told em, see, you tried to accomplish too much at one time, and you went past yer limits and couldn't handle it. THen my dad said yea that's true, but Jas yer going way under yer limit, not only is that also ineficient but if you never attempt to go past yer limits you will never improve yerself.
"If you never attempt to go past your own limits, you will never improve yourself."
Now that is an accurate and appropriate cool ass quote. Shit my dad's a pretty wise guy himself actually. not that i didn't know that before or anything.
We must always strive to improve ourselves and accomplish what we want to accomplish in life, but we musn't let that drive consume us. (so that we don't become assholes, or manic depressives or just unhappy old men later)
For those of you slight anime fans out there, kinda like we want to be like goku who is constantly a happy good guy who still works really really hard at improving himself. Not like Vegeta who works really hard is well, but is always disatisfied and is an asshole to everyone around him. And not like say.. Krillin or gohon later who got lazy and content with their current power and decided to settle down.
...yea kind of an odd example, but in many stories (books, anime, movies, video games, etc. they're all stories really) you can kinda see some of the basic truths i talk about. Like me, if you just observe life and the people around you you can also see this. For me, right now, I'm pretty sure i should work on getting back my motivation and ambition. I got some but not as much as I want. Then start doing tons of things, and retaining my confidence and satisfaction once I start doing more. Yea, this is all easy to say, much harder to do for anyone, but being able to see this thought process is the first essential step.
Having the right philosophy and thought process is like having the right or more better or grander plans and architectural drawings for a building.
This is all real general really, I'll talk about the specifics about what I am currently doing more, and what I want to do tomorrow in another entry, think I'm gonna watch Gigantor now. that show i watched as a kid cause we had a vhs of one, and lol, yea it's old school goodness to me, funniness mostly, warm feeling.
Anyway... lets see. I'll start out listing regular happenings first. Thanksgiving break starts after this tuesday (techincally today's) classes. I miss some classes as usual past few weeks but I've been networking with e-mail n stuff for notes and homework in the 4 classes (12 credits) i got right now, and am actually doing pretty good i think, prolly all As. This is due to some skill, nice&smart people/classmates, and luck. Like I said before, things kinda go smooth for me. This is one of the few things i got, my grades. I mean, not depressingly like all that, that's not my style. But what I mean is: compared to some other ppl's accomplishments and ambitions, I ain't doin much else. Everyone else, or most seem to have problems with grades but are good with other stuff. Ain't to say i haven't done that much, just... want to improve myself, I want to become stronger and more powerful, but at the same time, I'm not saying I'm not happy as well also.
There are many ambitious and active ppl in this college atmosphere. heh..sometimes the fast pace many others around here take actually gets on my nerves, since I got a more slow going entish personality in doing things. (I like to do a lot of stuff, but take my time doing it, and not perform anything drastic) problem is, being human that only lives 100 some years tops, and living in today's world where they say once yer out of college n shit yer stuck working some job the rest of yer life, i really can't afford to be like elves or ents. ah well. I never really believed all what todays world thinks anyway, so i can prolly compromise it some. hehe shit, the ppl who i think are active, ambitious, and talented some of em actually self-doubt themselves in their own journal, and prolly thoughts themselves. What's that say bout me, i could think.
Thing is though, not to brag, but I'm a pretty wise guy. I can see through to the heart of things. Most every or many ppl with deeper thoughts, (like many intelligent ppl, or college population ppl or anyone occasionaly for that matter) always self-doubt themselves n got their own problems, and even a highly successful person has doubts and possibly can have them to the point of being more unhappy than the laziest hobo. haha. As Yoshimitsu says: "Suffering of the ages, cometh in infinite forms."
What I mean is though is that you have to attempt to be happy while attempting to improve yerself at the same time. I kind of have faced both extremes in my life in wrestling, work, school, etc.. Working extremely hard to improve yerself.. is good actually. Being happy is good too. Laziness is not good, and neither is unhappiness. Work and happiness don't usually go hand in hand u'd think. That's the way i thought for a long time too, fore I perfected my continued philosophies. Ambition, and self improvement are things u should strive for completely, but you should not self-doubt yerself, pity yerself, fear failure, or think one must be unhappy ever. U should strive for inner peace and happiness, but you should not ever become lazy, lack lustered, lose ambition, or basically be like a fuckin hippie.
because it's fun to me i think I'll kinda list some minor examples. The person of whose journal I read that inspired this entry tonight, was a young very ambitious, and active person. Extremely Friendly and knew what they liked and enjoyed in life. They were doing well, but at the end of the entry the person mentions how they were self doubting themselves, how they thought they would vanish from existence without being meaningful, how life passes so fast and how college is "best years of yer life" (this particular line, due to excessive uses by many ppl and possible untrueness, i think is a piece of crap, just the line not the ppl who use it, can't blame them) yea..anyway we've all heard this type of stuff before, prolly lot of ppl said similar things themselves before. Thing is you don't need all those self doubting thoughts at the end, not to say yer doing fine and you can stop and take a break in life, but continue to do the best you can, but be happy along the way and never doubt yerself once is how i think ppl should think to get the most out of life. Kinda like Kazuma from "Scryed".
On the other side, there are some who are too content with what they have, and have true happiness and peace with the bumm lifestyle. (Quote from BOAs) This second half is good, but too many times ppl like this, such as a certain hobo we all know, tend to be slightly less motivated to continue to improve themselves as much. (I think I also am somewhat lenient towards this state at the current moment)
I remember my dad talking to me and my bro when we were lifting stones and putting in the new patio in back of the house. Art had been lifting way too many stones at one time, he was doing good n gettin more done than me of course till he dropped some and broke em. I told em, see, you tried to accomplish too much at one time, and you went past yer limits and couldn't handle it. THen my dad said yea that's true, but Jas yer going way under yer limit, not only is that also ineficient but if you never attempt to go past yer limits you will never improve yerself.
"If you never attempt to go past your own limits, you will never improve yourself."
Now that is an accurate and appropriate cool ass quote. Shit my dad's a pretty wise guy himself actually. not that i didn't know that before or anything.
We must always strive to improve ourselves and accomplish what we want to accomplish in life, but we musn't let that drive consume us. (so that we don't become assholes, or manic depressives or just unhappy old men later)
For those of you slight anime fans out there, kinda like we want to be like goku who is constantly a happy good guy who still works really really hard at improving himself. Not like Vegeta who works really hard is well, but is always disatisfied and is an asshole to everyone around him. And not like say.. Krillin or gohon later who got lazy and content with their current power and decided to settle down.
...yea kind of an odd example, but in many stories (books, anime, movies, video games, etc. they're all stories really) you can kinda see some of the basic truths i talk about. Like me, if you just observe life and the people around you you can also see this. For me, right now, I'm pretty sure i should work on getting back my motivation and ambition. I got some but not as much as I want. Then start doing tons of things, and retaining my confidence and satisfaction once I start doing more. Yea, this is all easy to say, much harder to do for anyone, but being able to see this thought process is the first essential step.
Having the right philosophy and thought process is like having the right or more better or grander plans and architectural drawings for a building.
This is all real general really, I'll talk about the specifics about what I am currently doing more, and what I want to do tomorrow in another entry, think I'm gonna watch Gigantor now. that show i watched as a kid cause we had a vhs of one, and lol, yea it's old school goodness to me, funniness mostly, warm feeling.