the excitement is setting in
I love Gareth so much !! I just can't express how much I love him, I never knew I could love someone this much and it makes me so happy. But it does mean that my fear of zombies has increased. Also fear of loss and impeding doom, because I wouldn't know what to do if I ever lost him.
If he ever left me I am sure I would be able to cope in time, etc, especially if there was some sort of deterioration or whatever.
But if he died, I wouldn't know how to carry on, and I would die inside myself. *sigh* I know it's morbid, but I can't help just feeling so scared of losing him.
*sigh*
anyway... yeah, I'm starting to really look forward to the wedding now that most things are done out of the way. I still have the seating plan to put together but that's pretty much it for the most part. I'm getting excited about my dress and the day itself and the ceremony, and seeing my friends. Everythng really. Part of me wonders what the hell I am going to do with my time once it's over. And I know I'll have the memories, but part of me doesn't want it to come too soon now that I am finally excited about it, I want to savour that feeling for a while...
Scarily I'm looking forward to being married. Now that's something I never thought I would say!
If he ever left me I am sure I would be able to cope in time, etc, especially if there was some sort of deterioration or whatever.
But if he died, I wouldn't know how to carry on, and I would die inside myself. *sigh* I know it's morbid, but I can't help just feeling so scared of losing him.
*sigh*
anyway... yeah, I'm starting to really look forward to the wedding now that most things are done out of the way. I still have the seating plan to put together but that's pretty much it for the most part. I'm getting excited about my dress and the day itself and the ceremony, and seeing my friends. Everythng really. Part of me wonders what the hell I am going to do with my time once it's over. And I know I'll have the memories, but part of me doesn't want it to come too soon now that I am finally excited about it, I want to savour that feeling for a while...
Scarily I'm looking forward to being married. Now that's something I never thought I would say!