Sundance stompede
So I'm here at the sundance saloon to dance, but I'm just sitting upstairs not really being a part of it. Don't get me wrong, I really enjoy dancing. But for some reason, I just don't seem to be taking to two stepping. Now I typically lead, but I don't really know how to. This leads me to not ask people to dance. If I'm not ready, I know I'm not ready. To torture someone by leading a whole dance of the simple basics would annoy me. And if I feel awkward, then it's no fun for the follow.
So I do a little following, but being one of the tallest guys here... Not what people look for in a follow. And well, I'm not giving off that pick me I love to follow vibe. I'm not helping my own cause. All in all, I probably won't have fun until I either take private lessons to feel comfortable enough to lead, or I'll just stop coming altogether. I really just started coming for Greg, but since he hasn't come in more months than he's actually come.. I don't even have a friend to hang out with.
That's the hardest thing for me. Because I can't dance well, it would be better if I had someone to hang with inbetween dances or even when needing a break. It's a bit of a catch 22. The only way to get better is to get out there. But my emotions tell me not to. And well, I'm listening to them more when they tell me not to. I want to do something I enjoy. And if I don't know the steps, I won't ruin someone else's fun because I'm in a bad place. I really need more in classes. Classes is the place to go slow, feel inadequate and make mistakes. The dance nights are way too fast with people who are way too good.
Honestly if it wasn't for James I'd probably have stopped altogether. He's incredibly sweet and well, he makes me feel good. It makes it worth some of the internal angst.
Now to figure out if I really want to learn and take some private lessons, or give up completely. It's really a matter of fun versus work effort. It's a good exercise thing, more fun than a gym could ever be (I can only take 15 minutes of a gym before becoming bored to tears).
Hm... Now that I think about it, it's really the partnering thing that's tough for me. Because I spend my life completely focusing on others and ignoring everything about myself, dancing a dance I don't know forces me into thinking too much about the step. And that is something that makes me uncomfortable in my soul. That must be what the problem is. Until I take enough lessons to feel comfortable to know it, I will never be comfortable leading it At a place where even the mediocre lead is incredible.
Meh. I'll probably stop going soon sine I'll be missing half I'd November and december is busy. Okay, I should probably sit around for anothejr fifteen minutes before Ian performs. Then debate going home an taking lessons tomorrow.
--written on the iPhone so forgive the awkward auto correct it does. It gets it wrong often.
So I do a little following, but being one of the tallest guys here... Not what people look for in a follow. And well, I'm not giving off that pick me I love to follow vibe. I'm not helping my own cause. All in all, I probably won't have fun until I either take private lessons to feel comfortable enough to lead, or I'll just stop coming altogether. I really just started coming for Greg, but since he hasn't come in more months than he's actually come.. I don't even have a friend to hang out with.
That's the hardest thing for me. Because I can't dance well, it would be better if I had someone to hang with inbetween dances or even when needing a break. It's a bit of a catch 22. The only way to get better is to get out there. But my emotions tell me not to. And well, I'm listening to them more when they tell me not to. I want to do something I enjoy. And if I don't know the steps, I won't ruin someone else's fun because I'm in a bad place. I really need more in classes. Classes is the place to go slow, feel inadequate and make mistakes. The dance nights are way too fast with people who are way too good.
Honestly if it wasn't for James I'd probably have stopped altogether. He's incredibly sweet and well, he makes me feel good. It makes it worth some of the internal angst.
Now to figure out if I really want to learn and take some private lessons, or give up completely. It's really a matter of fun versus work effort. It's a good exercise thing, more fun than a gym could ever be (I can only take 15 minutes of a gym before becoming bored to tears).
Hm... Now that I think about it, it's really the partnering thing that's tough for me. Because I spend my life completely focusing on others and ignoring everything about myself, dancing a dance I don't know forces me into thinking too much about the step. And that is something that makes me uncomfortable in my soul. That must be what the problem is. Until I take enough lessons to feel comfortable to know it, I will never be comfortable leading it At a place where even the mediocre lead is incredible.
Meh. I'll probably stop going soon sine I'll be missing half I'd November and december is busy. Okay, I should probably sit around for anothejr fifteen minutes before Ian performs. Then debate going home an taking lessons tomorrow.
--written on the iPhone so forgive the awkward auto correct it does. It gets it wrong often.