updateing
i have come to the realiztion that i am responsible for everything in my life every wrong turn every step of the way i have chosen where i would go in life. stuff doesnt just happen to you because even if you are thrown into a sitution you choose how you react. therefore you choose your path thru life.
i chose my path to college,i chose to date sarah...and i chose to let her go, i chose my job, i chose to get involved with kate even tho i knew the outcome, i chose to get involved with jenny, i chose to let my realationships with my friends slip, i chose every single step in my life willingly...and i chose to make those disisions sometimes in a sort of daze.
therefor i have decided to be single untill i learn to be happy by my self. i will not let my happiness be subject to other peoples moods, i can no longer live only to make others happy. this is something i have come to realize and it is something that i am going to work on while i am home.
and maybe i am destined to be alone. looking at the way my realationships have worked out both intimate and just friendship this is not hard to imagin. i am also working on a reason why this always happens to me im sure its something i am doing...we will see.
i chose my path to college,i chose to date sarah...and i chose to let her go, i chose my job, i chose to get involved with kate even tho i knew the outcome, i chose to get involved with jenny, i chose to let my realationships with my friends slip, i chose every single step in my life willingly...and i chose to make those disisions sometimes in a sort of daze.
therefor i have decided to be single untill i learn to be happy by my self. i will not let my happiness be subject to other peoples moods, i can no longer live only to make others happy. this is something i have come to realize and it is something that i am going to work on while i am home.
and maybe i am destined to be alone. looking at the way my realationships have worked out both intimate and just friendship this is not hard to imagin. i am also working on a reason why this always happens to me im sure its something i am doing...we will see.