nothing i can do
Reasons, everyone always wants reasons why I am the way I am. Honestly, I would like to know myself. So I write about what hurts, what makes me happy, what makes me cry and what makes me feel. I want to know why...
I cry.
I'm screaming silently inside.
I'm happy for a moment then I lose it.
I'm free but i hold back.
I hate myself
every time i look in the mirror.
I drown in my own self pity
I am ashamed.
I hide from everything.
I feel more than I can take.
I want to know why I am unable to be whole. Was I born with a failure inside of me that doesn't allow me to change? I spend my days scared. What If i never change? What if there are no reasons at all? WHAT IF I AM THE WAY I AM FOREVER AND THERES NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT? so i look for an answer to make the confusion go away. every day i wake up searching with only the hope that someday something will be found that will make this endless longing go away...
Have you ever wanted something so bad you can't breathe......?
i can't breathe
I cry.
I'm screaming silently inside.
I'm happy for a moment then I lose it.
I'm free but i hold back.
I hate myself
every time i look in the mirror.
I drown in my own self pity
I am ashamed.
I hide from everything.
I feel more than I can take.
I want to know why I am unable to be whole. Was I born with a failure inside of me that doesn't allow me to change? I spend my days scared. What If i never change? What if there are no reasons at all? WHAT IF I AM THE WAY I AM FOREVER AND THERES NOTHING I CAN DO ABOUT IT? so i look for an answer to make the confusion go away. every day i wake up searching with only the hope that someday something will be found that will make this endless longing go away...
Have you ever wanted something so bad you can't breathe......?
i can't breathe