10/01/05
So while I should probably warn you from the start that I'm not in the most stellar mood...I'm quite relaxed.
Last night I went out and partied it up with my favorite Social Work chicas! We were representing at the club last night ladies! We had fun, and I saw many people that I didn't expect to see so that was exciting! Now mind you....I knew I had to work today at 630AM.... and before we even went downtown I had all sorts of alcohol in my room...um...Bacardi gold, Bacardi Superior..99 apples, fire water, Devil's springs and some beer....um yea it was a pregame party..woo. But I honestly didn't drink too much.. I wasn't going to have a good night knowing I'd be hungover or what have you...come work time. So, I pregamed and then just danced/sweat it off. It was wearing off pretty well on the walk back here with Bethany. God I loveeeed how cold it was walking back after dancing in that heat trapper! So refreshing.
So then...I got back, went to bed..or well I tried. I didn't get to bed till almost 3...barely 3 hrs of sleep! So my alarm goes off and I realize how tired I am..but NOT hungover or what I'm notorious for....still drunk...yea, I'm infamous for waking up still drunk.... anyways, I go to work..tons of shit to do but Kim and I really work well together so it was good times. =)
I'm surprised I had so much energy for getting no sleep.. but after work I went tanning and I fell asleep for like 20 mins after the bed turned off! whoops.... haha. So I got back to my room and FELL..no I mean jumped (my bed is higher than the average bed that isn't a loft....) And I didn't wake up until 8pm.. I don't know what it is about sleeping during the day like that, but it always puts me in a weird..not so happy mood. It was as though each hr of sleep I got the more depressed I got after being awake... I came back online to see 10000 messages from people wanting this that and the other thing from me, and it didn't bug me but I definetly felt like a loser for being asleep since I've been home from work...
I haven't been doing too well physically...but my mental and emotional stability has outwieghed that part of me and I feel accomplished in that respect. Ever since being sick with that flu thing...I haven't been able to eat right at all. Food looks so gross, like a punishment of some sort...my stomach just turns and I always feel like I just wasted food someone else could have actually enjoyed as I'm digesting it.. I didn't notice I haven't been eating so well, I mean I maintain weight well and I've let myself get to about 120..something and it hasn't bugged me.. but aI woke up today after my nap and I felt like I lost 30 friggin pounds. I didn't feel or look that way this morning...I really hate how my body never gives me warning signs with this kind of stuff.
I find myself requiring more sleep than usual....but it's always so inconvinient when my body wants to sleep and when I want it to sleep.... I've been sooo messed up in my interal alarm clock or something..it's really starting to get to me. Hypoglyecemia is making itself known to me again, but it's not the worst of things. I know it's because I drink soo much...the drops in sugar and what have you really fuck me up inside.. I don't really eat sugar even in the mildest of forms...and I really don't want to just start doing so just so I won't get headaches....and faint...but I'm going to have to if I want a clear head for school and what not..
I've passed out a few times....but for always different reasons. A few weeks ago it was because I was having severe pain in my lower abdominal region....during ovulation. Something just gets so inflammed during it and it's unbearable pain. My sugar levels haven't gotten the best of me on most days...I really need to go home for a few days one weekend soon and talk all this out with my mom and figure out a correct kind of diet that will work for me... I get cranky when I can't eat what I want..etc. it would be therapudic for me to have a visit with my parents. I love them so much.
And apparently my chronic back pain is due to OVERARCHING. how the hell I manage to do that...is beyond me. Well not really.. I mean... when I stand and have to wear sneakers, for some reason I stand differently than wearing heels. I wear heels so well and my back never gives me problems when I wear them, but sneakers..any flat footed shoe KILLS ME. And then..at night when I sleep, I find that if I sleep on my stomach my back is overarched...but when I sleep on my back I never wake up with backpain because it's forced straight in that position. Guess I'm gonna have to remember how to lay so I can fix this problem before it gets worse...
and that is my rant.
OH and I'm going to sleep..and then waking up at 330 am to go to Lums with the Tabu family!!! god I love those guys!
Eric and I have dubbed Sunday as our designated sleep day... Looking forward to doing absolutely NOTHING tomorrow..woo.
Last night I went out and partied it up with my favorite Social Work chicas! We were representing at the club last night ladies! We had fun, and I saw many people that I didn't expect to see so that was exciting! Now mind you....I knew I had to work today at 630AM.... and before we even went downtown I had all sorts of alcohol in my room...um...Bacardi gold, Bacardi Superior..99 apples, fire water, Devil's springs and some beer....um yea it was a pregame party..woo. But I honestly didn't drink too much.. I wasn't going to have a good night knowing I'd be hungover or what have you...come work time. So, I pregamed and then just danced/sweat it off. It was wearing off pretty well on the walk back here with Bethany. God I loveeeed how cold it was walking back after dancing in that heat trapper! So refreshing.
So then...I got back, went to bed..or well I tried. I didn't get to bed till almost 3...barely 3 hrs of sleep! So my alarm goes off and I realize how tired I am..but NOT hungover or what I'm notorious for....still drunk...yea, I'm infamous for waking up still drunk.... anyways, I go to work..tons of shit to do but Kim and I really work well together so it was good times. =)
I'm surprised I had so much energy for getting no sleep.. but after work I went tanning and I fell asleep for like 20 mins after the bed turned off! whoops.... haha. So I got back to my room and FELL..no I mean jumped (my bed is higher than the average bed that isn't a loft....) And I didn't wake up until 8pm.. I don't know what it is about sleeping during the day like that, but it always puts me in a weird..not so happy mood. It was as though each hr of sleep I got the more depressed I got after being awake... I came back online to see 10000 messages from people wanting this that and the other thing from me, and it didn't bug me but I definetly felt like a loser for being asleep since I've been home from work...
I haven't been doing too well physically...but my mental and emotional stability has outwieghed that part of me and I feel accomplished in that respect. Ever since being sick with that flu thing...I haven't been able to eat right at all. Food looks so gross, like a punishment of some sort...my stomach just turns and I always feel like I just wasted food someone else could have actually enjoyed as I'm digesting it.. I didn't notice I haven't been eating so well, I mean I maintain weight well and I've let myself get to about 120..something and it hasn't bugged me.. but aI woke up today after my nap and I felt like I lost 30 friggin pounds. I didn't feel or look that way this morning...I really hate how my body never gives me warning signs with this kind of stuff.
I find myself requiring more sleep than usual....but it's always so inconvinient when my body wants to sleep and when I want it to sleep.... I've been sooo messed up in my interal alarm clock or something..it's really starting to get to me. Hypoglyecemia is making itself known to me again, but it's not the worst of things. I know it's because I drink soo much...the drops in sugar and what have you really fuck me up inside.. I don't really eat sugar even in the mildest of forms...and I really don't want to just start doing so just so I won't get headaches....and faint...but I'm going to have to if I want a clear head for school and what not..
I've passed out a few times....but for always different reasons. A few weeks ago it was because I was having severe pain in my lower abdominal region....during ovulation. Something just gets so inflammed during it and it's unbearable pain. My sugar levels haven't gotten the best of me on most days...I really need to go home for a few days one weekend soon and talk all this out with my mom and figure out a correct kind of diet that will work for me... I get cranky when I can't eat what I want..etc. it would be therapudic for me to have a visit with my parents. I love them so much.
And apparently my chronic back pain is due to OVERARCHING. how the hell I manage to do that...is beyond me. Well not really.. I mean... when I stand and have to wear sneakers, for some reason I stand differently than wearing heels. I wear heels so well and my back never gives me problems when I wear them, but sneakers..any flat footed shoe KILLS ME. And then..at night when I sleep, I find that if I sleep on my stomach my back is overarched...but when I sleep on my back I never wake up with backpain because it's forced straight in that position. Guess I'm gonna have to remember how to lay so I can fix this problem before it gets worse...
and that is my rant.
OH and I'm going to sleep..and then waking up at 330 am to go to Lums with the Tabu family!!! god I love those guys!
Eric and I have dubbed Sunday as our designated sleep day... Looking forward to doing absolutely NOTHING tomorrow..woo.