dependent
Just finished watching The Prestige. It was a damn great movie. Highly recommended! And I don't want to give it points out of 10, you simply have to watch it.
Can I say something else now?
I have this confused feeling. You know, people always tell me that they think I am an independent person, but I really am not. I feel that I rely on people most of the time - like normal people do. Probably you can't see it but I am discreetly more dependent on others than the normal average person. If not on daily life stuff, it's probably emotionally dependent (if there is such a term).
Emotionally dependent as in like, I need someone there for me to tell stuff to, complain to, talk to, simply be there beside me. I'll feel scared if I know that there's no one there beside me.
This semester is getting more lonely. Is it because of the h1n1 that no one dares to come to the library anymore? But putting that aside, there's the fact that most students transferred to the Aussie campus. Why I use students is because I can't really consider them my friends; I don't really know them well or talk to them much. Although I don't really talk to them, having them around gives me peace of mind. You know that there's people near and around you going through the same things as you, fighting for the same things as you. And that's what my definition of being emotionally dependent is. Sorry if there actually a term emotionally dependent and it differs so much from this definition I have. I simply don't know what to call it.
I understand how Stephanie feels in KL. She talked to me on msn before, asking me why didn't I take up Form 6 and go with her to a local university. She sounded upset at that time. I guess she must be feeling like how I am feeling now. Having a good friend at your side makes it so much easier to go through rough times, and I still regret till today that I could not be at her side at that time. I was also not by her side when she was crying over her STPM results. What kind of friend am I? I could only try to console her over the phone. Are girls the only people who need emotional support? I remember my secondary school BM teacher say that in uni, it's important to have good course mates. It doesn't matter if they help you or not in your coursework, but just having them there as an ear to listen to your complaints is enough. At the time it was said, I couldn't really comprehend, but I should say that there couldn't be something more appropriate to add.
I simply can't imagine how it would be like to go through uni life alone. Going to classes alone and such. Being alone although in a crowd-filled room. It's even worse than being alone in an empty room.
That's why I'm scared of what could be. Perhaps this is what they call comfort zone, and I'm worried what will happen to me if I step out of it.
Can I say something else now?
I have this confused feeling. You know, people always tell me that they think I am an independent person, but I really am not. I feel that I rely on people most of the time - like normal people do. Probably you can't see it but I am discreetly more dependent on others than the normal average person. If not on daily life stuff, it's probably emotionally dependent (if there is such a term).
Emotionally dependent as in like, I need someone there for me to tell stuff to, complain to, talk to, simply be there beside me. I'll feel scared if I know that there's no one there beside me.
This semester is getting more lonely. Is it because of the h1n1 that no one dares to come to the library anymore? But putting that aside, there's the fact that most students transferred to the Aussie campus. Why I use students is because I can't really consider them my friends; I don't really know them well or talk to them much. Although I don't really talk to them, having them around gives me peace of mind. You know that there's people near and around you going through the same things as you, fighting for the same things as you. And that's what my definition of being emotionally dependent is. Sorry if there actually a term emotionally dependent and it differs so much from this definition I have. I simply don't know what to call it.
I understand how Stephanie feels in KL. She talked to me on msn before, asking me why didn't I take up Form 6 and go with her to a local university. She sounded upset at that time. I guess she must be feeling like how I am feeling now. Having a good friend at your side makes it so much easier to go through rough times, and I still regret till today that I could not be at her side at that time. I was also not by her side when she was crying over her STPM results. What kind of friend am I? I could only try to console her over the phone. Are girls the only people who need emotional support? I remember my secondary school BM teacher say that in uni, it's important to have good course mates. It doesn't matter if they help you or not in your coursework, but just having them there as an ear to listen to your complaints is enough. At the time it was said, I couldn't really comprehend, but I should say that there couldn't be something more appropriate to add.
I simply can't imagine how it would be like to go through uni life alone. Going to classes alone and such. Being alone although in a crowd-filled room. It's even worse than being alone in an empty room.
That's why I'm scared of what could be. Perhaps this is what they call comfort zone, and I'm worried what will happen to me if I step out of it.