Bleh...
Damn it. I was really happy earlier today too. Then I had to come home. I'm coughing a lot more now, I hope I'll be able to sleep tonight. My voice is shot, so much for nailing the audition on Wednesday. I'm so confused and messed up about everything right now. And I'm hurt because people make promises to me and then break them.
It's not stupid, it's not like it's no big deal, but I feel like putting myself down for it anyway even though I know it's not my fault. My dad told me today that he can't come to the Dessert Theater. He has ANOTHER far-away conference which happens to be scheduled on the same date as one of my major events. This is a big thing for me. Besides Felice's Christmas party, I've never had a big solo like this. This is HUGE. And it's not all people I don't know this time either, I have people coming to see me. I'm scared to death, it's my first time really doing something like this. Fear and inexperience have a tendency to hinder performance, but I'm still looking on the bright side. But he promised me he'd be there. And I gave him the date in October, he KNEW. He said the meeting was scheduled even before then. Well he should have damn well told me.
People make promises they can't keep, it's a fact of life. It's not really as bad as deliberately lying, is it? But it still hurts. Life hurts, everyone knows that. It's good sometimes, but I don't feel like thinking about that right now.
Hey, tomorrow I'm driving Sam to get our shots all by myself. Cross your fingers for me.
It's not stupid, it's not like it's no big deal, but I feel like putting myself down for it anyway even though I know it's not my fault. My dad told me today that he can't come to the Dessert Theater. He has ANOTHER far-away conference which happens to be scheduled on the same date as one of my major events. This is a big thing for me. Besides Felice's Christmas party, I've never had a big solo like this. This is HUGE. And it's not all people I don't know this time either, I have people coming to see me. I'm scared to death, it's my first time really doing something like this. Fear and inexperience have a tendency to hinder performance, but I'm still looking on the bright side. But he promised me he'd be there. And I gave him the date in October, he KNEW. He said the meeting was scheduled even before then. Well he should have damn well told me.
People make promises they can't keep, it's a fact of life. It's not really as bad as deliberately lying, is it? But it still hurts. Life hurts, everyone knows that. It's good sometimes, but I don't feel like thinking about that right now.
Hey, tomorrow I'm driving Sam to get our shots all by myself. Cross your fingers for me.