Homesick [Private]
Dammit, these people don't leave me alone! I don't want to meet the new members. I don't care who they are as long as they don't get in the way. I'm not here in Ad Libitum to make friends. I'm here to find a way home. I want to see Natalia. I promised her...I didn't think I could keep those promises, but I'm still alive today. This is why I hate promising. Things change too much, and I can never keep them. That's why I want to at keep to my word at least once. It's my responsibility to her.
But for all I know, she could be married. I'd never interfere, but I can't say that I'd be happy with that. It's not like any of that matters now. I'm stuck here anyway. For all I know, I might not get back for years. If we ever get back or at least survive this place.
I've been too friendly with Tear. We happen to have the same goal, but that's it. She's useful because she's trying to get back to Auldrant too, but she's with the replica.
I told him I'd accept him if he defeated me. I still don't want to call him Luke. It's not like I'm going to go by that name anymore. It's been too long...but it's still my name that he's been using. At least he defeated Van and released Lorelei. I was supposed to do that. I was dying anyway. I was the one Van needed. Damn thief steals everything from me.
Well, none of that matters anymore. I've been focusing on the past for too long. It's not like anything will ever change, so it's a waste of time worrying about it. It's like the last time. I can no longer live the same life I've been leading. But this time, if I want to return everything to the way it was, I'll have to focus on my new life here. I still can't forget everything that happened. I'd say that I need to change a little, but then I'd sound like that idiot...but maybe he had a point and I'm the idiot. Not that I'd ever mention that aloud.
...but that doesn't mean I'll start making friends! I don't care if people think I have an appalling personality. If they don't like it, that's their problem, not mine!
But for all I know, she could be married. I'd never interfere, but I can't say that I'd be happy with that. It's not like any of that matters now. I'm stuck here anyway. For all I know, I might not get back for years. If we ever get back or at least survive this place.
I've been too friendly with Tear. We happen to have the same goal, but that's it. She's useful because she's trying to get back to Auldrant too, but she's with the replica.
I told him I'd accept him if he defeated me. I still don't want to call him Luke. It's not like I'm going to go by that name anymore. It's been too long...but it's still my name that he's been using. At least he defeated Van and released Lorelei. I was supposed to do that. I was dying anyway. I was the one Van needed. Damn thief steals everything from me.
Well, none of that matters anymore. I've been focusing on the past for too long. It's not like anything will ever change, so it's a waste of time worrying about it. It's like the last time. I can no longer live the same life I've been leading. But this time, if I want to return everything to the way it was, I'll have to focus on my new life here. I still can't forget everything that happened. I'd say that I need to change a little, but then I'd sound like that idiot...but maybe he had a point and I'm the idiot. Not that I'd ever mention that aloud.
...but that doesn't mean I'll start making friends! I don't care if people think I have an appalling personality. If they don't like it, that's their problem, not mine!