Loveless (Chapter 5) ; YamaChii
Title: Loveless (Chapter 5)
Author:
arioka_yuri
Pairing: Yamada x Chinen
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance, (drama?)
Type: Chaptered
Summary: All Chinen wishes is for Yamada to love him as much as he loves Yamada, but will it stay as a wish or will it come true?
Prologue | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4
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"Take care of him." Yuto said to Yamada as he handed Chinen to him. Sending a glare to Yamada, Yamada already know what that means. Yuto is scary when he is angry, that was the new discovery that Yamada has discovered today, he thought of Yuto as an angel who is always cheerful and happy. But when he is mad the world turns upside down, Yamada thought that his world will end from every glare that he receive from the tall boy. He only nodded as a reply then he carried Chinen on his back.
"Bye Dai-chan" Yamada bid farewell to Daiki, Daiki nodded then gave Yamada a peck on the lips. Yamada smiled then bid farewell to Yuto too but Yuto rolled his eyes in return, Yamada gulped.
When Yamada is out of sight anymore Daiki suddenly blurted out "Why is he going home with Yamada?" Daiki asked looking at Yuto with arms crossed into his chest. But, he is not a jealous type so Yuto just smiled because he knows that Daiki have 100% faith in his lover.
"Neighbors… I guess?" Yuto jerked his chin up. In return Daiki laughed.
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Yamada was walking on the streets with Chinen on his back still sleeping. The dim lights that came from the street lights struck on the porcelain skin of them. Chinen is so light… Yamada thought as he adjusted Chinen on his back, adjusting Chinen as if it's just a cotton on his back.
He continued walking in the street kicking the pebbles or rocks he see in every meter. He continued all of the act until he reached their house. He inserted the key into the tiny hole of the door knob and with a click the door opened revealing a dark room with a nice aroma.
Chinen woke up from his position on Yamada's back who is now removing his shoes using his bare feet. He blinked his eyes slowly still not wanting to go into the real world but just gaze off into his dream land where everything he wants can come true.
The sound of Yamada's humming voice brought him into reality, he hurriedly got off his lover's back while saying sorry repeatedly. "Shhhh… It's okay" Yamada patted Chinen's head then smiled gently.
Chinen's heart skipped a bit; his smile which brings a sunshine upon his slowly decaying world, his voice which brings melody into his broken heart, he can't forget all of that.
"I…" Chinen started a conversation then bowed his head low, not sure of what words are going to come out from his mouth. Yamada stopped his actions, he feels so nervous about all the things that are going to happen in this night.
He can't face Chinen…
After all he has done to him….
He can't see the sorrow in his lover's beautiful eyes….
Chinen faked a cough then hurriedly changed the topic he has in his mind. "Yuto sure have grown taller ne?" Chinen said lighting up the atmosphere between them. But instead of lighting up Yamada's atmosphere it got more dark. "Yuto again?…" Yamada said lowly. "eh?" Chinen said because he didn't heard it clearly.
Mentioning Yuto's name, Jealousy enveloped Yamada's confused heart. And without thinking twice he pushed the younger boy into the wall hardly that it made Chinen almost cough blood. He leaned into Chinen's neck then sucked and nibbled it hardly. Chinen groaned in pain. "Stop.." Chinen said weakly while trying to push Yamada away from him.
A red liquid suddenly dropped on the small latter's abused neck. Yamada already tasted the blood in his mouth but continued sucking and nibbling his neck. Without noticing, crystal tears suddenly fell out off Chinen's beautiful eyes. "Stop… Please.." He begged. But Yamada didn't listen to him.
Yamada is now completely covered with lust he doesn't even know what he is doing right now. All he has in his mind is to have the boy named Chinen Yuri all by himself. No other guy's can get his lover. No one can ever touch his lover. No one except him.
He stopped all the biting for a moment while licking his lips that is quite covered with a small amount of blood. He slowly looked into Chinen's eyes .. Full of lust, anger and selfishness can be seen fom it. Yamada slowly leaned down to kiss Chinen on the lips.
Then suddenly Chinen have done an unexpected movement.
SLAP!
"STOP IT !"
"WHAT WAS THAT?!" Yamada shouted back as he caressed the spot that he was just hit at.
"What was that?! Why are you asking me? I should be the one asking that to you right?"
Yamada gripped Chinen's wrist more as he narrowed his eyes in anger.
"Why are you looking at me like that? Why? It scares me... It always has" Now the little boy's tears are rappidly falling on his eyes which is comparable at the speed of the rapid movement of water that is flowing and falling in the waterfall.
"I'm always struggling at this pain that you have brought in my life!.. I knew it from the bottom of my heart the hardest choice would be the best.. Yet, my self-love refuses it and repeats self-condradiction, because when I see your face I know that I can't live you! I know that my life would NOT be complete without you! I always ask my heart when can I tell it to you? but it never answers, but now it did!" He screamed .. with his hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain.
Yamada is completely speechless at all the words that Chinen spilled out. Without noticing tears suddenly fell out of his eyes. He still looked at Chinen directly into the eyes but the two boys can't just see each other's faces because of the tears that maded their vision blury.
Their hearts are full of thorns Chinen never knew that this time would come, the time where he can say his true feelings to Yamada, while Yamada never knew that Chinen have felt that way, everyword that comes out from Chinen's mouth is just another thorn that is being pierced in his heart.
"i... I still remember the season when we first met... your grace smile, your gentle voice that made me fall inlove with you badly... You know Just once?.. Just once... If I could have my wish to come true.... I wish I'd be born again and go see you on those days."
Bringing up old issues they just hurt each other as badly as possible.
"Sorry..." it was the word that Yamada can only say.
Chinen shook his head signaling a disapprovement to the apology. With the continuous dull relationship that they have greviously Chinen can't change his mind. Chinen still loves him, he still don't want to be apart from him. but he have to tell him.
"Goodbye Yama-chan it's over... Please let's just end this relationship.." Despite of Chinen's determination on telling the phrase, the pain is still penetrating in his heart. His heart hurts more than the physical wounds he got.
The last thing that Chinen did was lean in to catch Yamada's lips for the last time.
He stood up and hurriedly ran outside the house leaving Yamada.. ending all the relationship he had with the older boy. He have to leave without turning back..
It's raining heavily in their minds
they're stunned
they're standing dead
their vision is blurry
and lastly
their hearts have been broken.
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A/N: Sorry for the two weeks delay; Curse exams, save papers lol XD ! This chapter made me cry while writing it :( it's really sad ;A; ------- I'll do 5 One-shot's this christmas and ofcourse it'll be YamaChii, Daichii, ChiiTaro, TakaChii and YutoChii (I'm biased)
what do you guys think? :3
btw, thanks for reading, comments are always loved ♥
Author:
arioka_yuri
Pairing: Yamada x Chinen
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst, Romance, (drama?)
Type: Chaptered
Summary: All Chinen wishes is for Yamada to love him as much as he loves Yamada, but will it stay as a wish or will it come true?
Prologue | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4
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"Take care of him." Yuto said to Yamada as he handed Chinen to him. Sending a glare to Yamada, Yamada already know what that means. Yuto is scary when he is angry, that was the new discovery that Yamada has discovered today, he thought of Yuto as an angel who is always cheerful and happy. But when he is mad the world turns upside down, Yamada thought that his world will end from every glare that he receive from the tall boy. He only nodded as a reply then he carried Chinen on his back.
"Bye Dai-chan" Yamada bid farewell to Daiki, Daiki nodded then gave Yamada a peck on the lips. Yamada smiled then bid farewell to Yuto too but Yuto rolled his eyes in return, Yamada gulped.
When Yamada is out of sight anymore Daiki suddenly blurted out "Why is he going home with Yamada?" Daiki asked looking at Yuto with arms crossed into his chest. But, he is not a jealous type so Yuto just smiled because he knows that Daiki have 100% faith in his lover.
"Neighbors… I guess?" Yuto jerked his chin up. In return Daiki laughed.
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Yamada was walking on the streets with Chinen on his back still sleeping. The dim lights that came from the street lights struck on the porcelain skin of them. Chinen is so light… Yamada thought as he adjusted Chinen on his back, adjusting Chinen as if it's just a cotton on his back.
He continued walking in the street kicking the pebbles or rocks he see in every meter. He continued all of the act until he reached their house. He inserted the key into the tiny hole of the door knob and with a click the door opened revealing a dark room with a nice aroma.
Chinen woke up from his position on Yamada's back who is now removing his shoes using his bare feet. He blinked his eyes slowly still not wanting to go into the real world but just gaze off into his dream land where everything he wants can come true.
The sound of Yamada's humming voice brought him into reality, he hurriedly got off his lover's back while saying sorry repeatedly. "Shhhh… It's okay" Yamada patted Chinen's head then smiled gently.
Chinen's heart skipped a bit; his smile which brings a sunshine upon his slowly decaying world, his voice which brings melody into his broken heart, he can't forget all of that.
"I…" Chinen started a conversation then bowed his head low, not sure of what words are going to come out from his mouth. Yamada stopped his actions, he feels so nervous about all the things that are going to happen in this night.
He can't face Chinen…
After all he has done to him….
He can't see the sorrow in his lover's beautiful eyes….
Chinen faked a cough then hurriedly changed the topic he has in his mind. "Yuto sure have grown taller ne?" Chinen said lighting up the atmosphere between them. But instead of lighting up Yamada's atmosphere it got more dark. "Yuto again?…" Yamada said lowly. "eh?" Chinen said because he didn't heard it clearly.
Mentioning Yuto's name, Jealousy enveloped Yamada's confused heart. And without thinking twice he pushed the younger boy into the wall hardly that it made Chinen almost cough blood. He leaned into Chinen's neck then sucked and nibbled it hardly. Chinen groaned in pain. "Stop.." Chinen said weakly while trying to push Yamada away from him.
A red liquid suddenly dropped on the small latter's abused neck. Yamada already tasted the blood in his mouth but continued sucking and nibbling his neck. Without noticing, crystal tears suddenly fell out off Chinen's beautiful eyes. "Stop… Please.." He begged. But Yamada didn't listen to him.
Yamada is now completely covered with lust he doesn't even know what he is doing right now. All he has in his mind is to have the boy named Chinen Yuri all by himself. No other guy's can get his lover. No one can ever touch his lover. No one except him.
He stopped all the biting for a moment while licking his lips that is quite covered with a small amount of blood. He slowly looked into Chinen's eyes .. Full of lust, anger and selfishness can be seen fom it. Yamada slowly leaned down to kiss Chinen on the lips.
Then suddenly Chinen have done an unexpected movement.
SLAP!
"STOP IT !"
"WHAT WAS THAT?!" Yamada shouted back as he caressed the spot that he was just hit at.
"What was that?! Why are you asking me? I should be the one asking that to you right?"
Yamada gripped Chinen's wrist more as he narrowed his eyes in anger.
"Why are you looking at me like that? Why? It scares me... It always has" Now the little boy's tears are rappidly falling on his eyes which is comparable at the speed of the rapid movement of water that is flowing and falling in the waterfall.
"I'm always struggling at this pain that you have brought in my life!.. I knew it from the bottom of my heart the hardest choice would be the best.. Yet, my self-love refuses it and repeats self-condradiction, because when I see your face I know that I can't live you! I know that my life would NOT be complete without you! I always ask my heart when can I tell it to you? but it never answers, but now it did!" He screamed .. with his hoarse voice, rebound and resonance echo in vain.
Yamada is completely speechless at all the words that Chinen spilled out. Without noticing tears suddenly fell out of his eyes. He still looked at Chinen directly into the eyes but the two boys can't just see each other's faces because of the tears that maded their vision blury.
Their hearts are full of thorns Chinen never knew that this time would come, the time where he can say his true feelings to Yamada, while Yamada never knew that Chinen have felt that way, everyword that comes out from Chinen's mouth is just another thorn that is being pierced in his heart.
"i... I still remember the season when we first met... your grace smile, your gentle voice that made me fall inlove with you badly... You know Just once?.. Just once... If I could have my wish to come true.... I wish I'd be born again and go see you on those days."
Bringing up old issues they just hurt each other as badly as possible.
"Sorry..." it was the word that Yamada can only say.
Chinen shook his head signaling a disapprovement to the apology. With the continuous dull relationship that they have greviously Chinen can't change his mind. Chinen still loves him, he still don't want to be apart from him. but he have to tell him.
"Goodbye Yama-chan it's over... Please let's just end this relationship.." Despite of Chinen's determination on telling the phrase, the pain is still penetrating in his heart. His heart hurts more than the physical wounds he got.
The last thing that Chinen did was lean in to catch Yamada's lips for the last time.
He stood up and hurriedly ran outside the house leaving Yamada.. ending all the relationship he had with the older boy. He have to leave without turning back..
It's raining heavily in their minds
they're stunned
they're standing dead
their vision is blurry
and lastly
their hearts have been broken.
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A/N: Sorry for the two weeks delay; Curse exams, save papers lol XD ! This chapter made me cry while writing it :( it's really sad ;A; ------- I'll do 5 One-shot's this christmas and ofcourse it'll be YamaChii, Daichii, ChiiTaro, TakaChii and YutoChii (I'm biased)
what do you guys think? :3
btw, thanks for reading, comments are always loved ♥