Something author-ish from me: "Hope"
Title: Hope
Author: ArinnaVal
Characters: Might be tied with an RPG I'm having.
Genre: Angst/Romance
Hope guides me every day and every hour since you’ve been gone.
I’ve shed so many tears I could get drown in them. My eyes went dry like the lonely desert under the ruthless Sun. It only hurts when I’m breathing. It’s like someone stole a piece of me and threw it away. I kept watching in the front door, waiting for a sign. Waiting for a miracle and hoping for one to come and save me from my misery.
I couldn’t face my daughter right now and I could only be thankful she’s just a baby. Babies were not supposed to think and understand what’s happening around them. A baby couldn’t feel the endless pain in his/her heart from someone’s missing. However, they could feel, especially when the one’s missing is someone close. Then the crying starts and it’s like a never-ending torture. How could you calm your child when you, yourself is hurting?
The only thing left for me is just to let her cry. I didn’t have more strength left in me. My arms wrap around my folded knees and my body start swaying back and forth. Left her cry… Back and fourth… Left her cry… Back and forth…
I could only stare at her and feel sorry. Sorry, because she’d grown up one day and start asking questions.
“Where is daddy?”
“Away, my princess.”
“Where?”
“I don’t know.”
Here she’s crying again and there is nothing you can do. Nothing, except holding her in your arms and whispering calming words. Words, you didn’t think. Lies, you had to say to protect her and be strong when you want to fall apart.
…..
Hope is what guides me… that you’ll show up and save me from that misery. Save her too, because I can’t be strong. Not like this. Come home....please...