Wow.
I randomly looked at Abby's LJ today. I have no idea why; when you're up at 4 A.M. because you can't sleep you think of weird ways to pass the time.
Anyway, this is what caught my eye, apparently a response to my last entry: (> and < mine to designate beginning and end)
>Arland,
I'd love to rail at you for everything. What right do you of all people possibly have to call my fiance a bastard? He wasn't the one who brought another woman into our bed and then left me for her. But it's just not worth the energy to be pissed at you. You wish you could still have a relationship with my son? Then you should have thought of that before you did what did, and told the lies that you told. You don't always get what you want. You can't have it both ways. Do you know why? That's the price you pay for the decisions you make. It's called opportunity cost. You decided Shirley meant more than Luke. Now you have to live with that decision.
Abby<
Okay. The first thing that comes to mind is that, for someone who regrets nothing, she sure does forget a copious amount of detail regarding our relationship. I guess you don't have to regret it if you don't remember it, now do you? I guess I'll address that later and the rest in the following reply, since she apparently reads my journal. This feels theraputic already.
Abigail,
I'd love to actually point out why we broke up, but apparently you'd either ignore it or not care. What right do you have to question my opinion of the man with which you cheated? He was the one who brought YOU into HIS bed, and his couch, and whatever else, while we were still together. But it's just not worth the energy to be pissed at you. Yes, I wish I still could have a relationship with your son, which I -did- think about or I wouldn't have tried to make an infidel relationship work after the lies you told. You don't always get what you want. You can't have it both ways. Do you know why? That's the price you pay for decisions you make. It's called opportunity cost. You decided to betray me, and I lost both you AND Luke because of it. Now -I- have to live with -YOUR- decision.
Arland.
I don't think she realizes that our relationship never would have deteriorated to the point it did if I felt I could trust her. She certainly doesn't regret it, as she's stated many times. She never regrets anything. That's all fine and dandy, as long as you remember what it is you're supposed to not regret. With all the ignoring she does, I question the remembering. Yes, I'm upset that I lost Luke. I have that right, because Luke was the reason I tried for as long as I did. You can't say "because I screwed you over and wracked you with guilt for staying with me and you left me, it's your fault for leaving" in good conscience...at least, I thought you couldn't until I read her journal. Apparently, you can. My mistake.
I can't believe I'm still arguing about this. It's been too long to still consume my time and energy. I expressed non-aggressive, heartfelt regret about Luke. If she's so happy in her relationship, why is there still such bitterness? Shirley soaked mine away. It's very difficult to feel pain for the past when I feel so much excitement for the future. As much as I go into 'debater mode' when I'm under attack, and as much as I miss Luke, I have fully moved on from my relationship with Abby. And while I stand by my statement that, yes, Chris is a bastard, I wish them both well. I really do. Because if they do well enough, maybe I can finally be through with posts like these.
Arland.
Anyway, this is what caught my eye, apparently a response to my last entry: (> and < mine to designate beginning and end)
>Arland,
I'd love to rail at you for everything. What right do you of all people possibly have to call my fiance a bastard? He wasn't the one who brought another woman into our bed and then left me for her. But it's just not worth the energy to be pissed at you. You wish you could still have a relationship with my son? Then you should have thought of that before you did what did, and told the lies that you told. You don't always get what you want. You can't have it both ways. Do you know why? That's the price you pay for the decisions you make. It's called opportunity cost. You decided Shirley meant more than Luke. Now you have to live with that decision.
Abby<
Okay. The first thing that comes to mind is that, for someone who regrets nothing, she sure does forget a copious amount of detail regarding our relationship. I guess you don't have to regret it if you don't remember it, now do you? I guess I'll address that later and the rest in the following reply, since she apparently reads my journal. This feels theraputic already.
Abigail,
I'd love to actually point out why we broke up, but apparently you'd either ignore it or not care. What right do you have to question my opinion of the man with which you cheated? He was the one who brought YOU into HIS bed, and his couch, and whatever else, while we were still together. But it's just not worth the energy to be pissed at you. Yes, I wish I still could have a relationship with your son, which I -did- think about or I wouldn't have tried to make an infidel relationship work after the lies you told. You don't always get what you want. You can't have it both ways. Do you know why? That's the price you pay for decisions you make. It's called opportunity cost. You decided to betray me, and I lost both you AND Luke because of it. Now -I- have to live with -YOUR- decision.
Arland.
I don't think she realizes that our relationship never would have deteriorated to the point it did if I felt I could trust her. She certainly doesn't regret it, as she's stated many times. She never regrets anything. That's all fine and dandy, as long as you remember what it is you're supposed to not regret. With all the ignoring she does, I question the remembering. Yes, I'm upset that I lost Luke. I have that right, because Luke was the reason I tried for as long as I did. You can't say "because I screwed you over and wracked you with guilt for staying with me and you left me, it's your fault for leaving" in good conscience...at least, I thought you couldn't until I read her journal. Apparently, you can. My mistake.
I can't believe I'm still arguing about this. It's been too long to still consume my time and energy. I expressed non-aggressive, heartfelt regret about Luke. If she's so happy in her relationship, why is there still such bitterness? Shirley soaked mine away. It's very difficult to feel pain for the past when I feel so much excitement for the future. As much as I go into 'debater mode' when I'm under attack, and as much as I miss Luke, I have fully moved on from my relationship with Abby. And while I stand by my statement that, yes, Chris is a bastard, I wish them both well. I really do. Because if they do well enough, maybe I can finally be through with posts like these.
Arland.