My Christmas
I got really upset on Christmas Eve. My Dad gave me a mirror. A present he gave to every other family at Zuks Christmas. It's probably the most insulting thing, to get a present, not only based on somekind of cliche but also duplicated for every person Dad knows.
On reflection of course, my tears are unwarrented. Of course my father doesn't understand me. I've known that for a very long time. And others have had much worse presents (re: Frippoi and Coles chocolate, re: AlmightyBean and his fish curry ingrediants).
And I know others care a lot less about gifts. I suppose it is just refreshing to realise how little my father understand me, and somewhat the very little he cares to find out.
I think it upsets me more because the mirror seems like the oppocite of a present Dad would think of and I think Victoria probably chose it. Victoria is a lady I believe my father is interested in (his brother who lives next door to him gave the gift to him and Victoria, so, people more likely to know think they are a couple). It's just a little gauling, since I have never been introduced to her, Dad never talks about her. I got pretty... err... generic presents from her. A breathaliser (since when would I use this?) and a singing Christmas mug (umm, a bit tacky).
Of course I would have been misjudged by a woman who only knows me through my father, but it's also annoying Dad didn't tell me I was going to be getting a gift from her. A woman I have never met. Argh, I have this rule about presents where I like to give where I recieve. Not anyones fault really (though some heads up would have been courteous). It's just another annoyance I suppose.
Eh, in short I wish Dad would make his realtionship feel less secret. I don't feel it is my place to ask about this, I know this would be misconstrued by my father and organise some kind of retarded "meet and greet" and that is the oppocite of enjoyable.
Basically, to sum up, I am not close with anyone in the Zuks family, and reapsta's family feels closer to me.
But my father is my father and is unlikely to ever 'get' me.
Eh, I know what I have written here is likely to be misconstrued. But I feel like it's insincere to delete this now I have written it.
Photography
On a more interesting note I recieved a book about past photographers. It's pretty sweet if rertarded. The photos are read into quite a lot. Though I suppose that in the days where photos were hugely scarce and greatly expensive there was a lot more thought into it's meaning.
It's given me an idea for a Milton themed set, it would require a realistic looking gun though, which I don't have. No, that's a lie, to be pulled off well it needs to look realistic. I think I can make a plastic one look real enough with low light.
Christmas
Christmas has been good, today I have been reminded about people who are related to me who are cool. (My uncle and my aunt).
Got books I need to read. I hope to do it.
I think I am doing well with the photography one.
(Fuck lj spell check)