Changes
I handed over to the person taking over from me today. I don't leave for another week and a half, but it hit me today how weird it feels. This is really the first job I have enjoyed since graduating. It's had difficult patches, but my colleagues are all great, it's at a great Uni and even though it's kind of underchallenging it hasn't been all bad (lots of free time etc.. would be better if the free time was my own but hey :p).
And very soon I'll be doing a doctorate which will be really hard work. My commute is going from 1.5m to minimum of 17m (possibly more like 60m at times). No major increase in salary til next year (it probably just about covers pension and travel expenses on top of what I earn now). Lower mileage rates. Fewer free weekends. Oh dear, what am I signing up to?! I know it's a smart move though because it's the next step for me, and in 3 years I'll be a qualified clin psych hopefully. I guess I'm just not looking forward to having to change placement every 6 months, supervisor, statistics and reports, new colleagues, etc etc, and all the shit that comes with studying!
Oh adult life is no fun!
I am also having another moment where I wish I had rich parents who had saved a bean for me when I was a kid as opposed to blowing it on drugs, booze and cigs. Le sigh. Mortgage looks increasingly out of reach, and wedding is uncertain (not that I mind at the moment for various, more complicated reasons, but 10 year anniversary would have been a nice figure).
I cannot wait for my party though! Who wants to be an adult anyway?? :p
On that note, a quote
"Charlotte pulled back the door of the compartment and stepped out. Levade had told her one day that there was no such thing as a coherent human personality. When you are forty you have no cell in your body that you had at eighteen. It was the same, he said, with your character. Memory is the only thing that binds you to earlier selves; for the rest, you become an entirely different being every decade or so, sloughing off the old persona, renewing and moving on. You are not who you were, he told her, nor who you will be."
Charlotte Gray by Sebastian Faulks
And very soon I'll be doing a doctorate which will be really hard work. My commute is going from 1.5m to minimum of 17m (possibly more like 60m at times). No major increase in salary til next year (it probably just about covers pension and travel expenses on top of what I earn now). Lower mileage rates. Fewer free weekends. Oh dear, what am I signing up to?! I know it's a smart move though because it's the next step for me, and in 3 years I'll be a qualified clin psych hopefully. I guess I'm just not looking forward to having to change placement every 6 months, supervisor, statistics and reports, new colleagues, etc etc, and all the shit that comes with studying!
Oh adult life is no fun!
I am also having another moment where I wish I had rich parents who had saved a bean for me when I was a kid as opposed to blowing it on drugs, booze and cigs. Le sigh. Mortgage looks increasingly out of reach, and wedding is uncertain (not that I mind at the moment for various, more complicated reasons, but 10 year anniversary would have been a nice figure).
I cannot wait for my party though! Who wants to be an adult anyway?? :p
On that note, a quote
"Charlotte pulled back the door of the compartment and stepped out. Levade had told her one day that there was no such thing as a coherent human personality. When you are forty you have no cell in your body that you had at eighteen. It was the same, he said, with your character. Memory is the only thing that binds you to earlier selves; for the rest, you become an entirely different being every decade or so, sloughing off the old persona, renewing and moving on. You are not who you were, he told her, nor who you will be."
Charlotte Gray by Sebastian Faulks