You Never Know
So, last night I finally heard from Joey after his 7am-9pm interview in New Mexico. He didn't get the job in Colorado, but had a great time with the people of Sandia. We are now down to 2 possible options; here or there. After sobbing to mom for about an hour, I rearranged my mental picture of the future and hope that I can tolerate it. Working for a place that manages nuclear weapons (which I'm against) and living in the middle of the desert were never things I wanted out of life. But then again, who am I to plan such a thing. I may as well let God choose this one, he always seems to fix all the horrible decisions I've made in the past.
Anyhow, this morning I needed my morning playlist to wake me up. I put it on random, and this was the first song I heard today. I found it appropriate: Beth Nielsen Chapman, "Shake My Soul."
I had it all lined up
Then my future crashed
I heard the deadbolt lock
And there stood my past
But there are no signs for tomorrow
On the back roads of my sorrow
I could beg, steal
I could borrow
But the grace will have to come to me
I'm gonna shake my soul
And release my hold
Givin' up control
And let the rest unfold
Cause it's a long, long way from here to where we go
Take off the training wheels
Lift off the handle bars
I'll drive right through my fears
And resurrect my heart
And even in my darkest hour
When my tears stayed undercover
I know it one way or another
Love is coming back around to me
I'm gonna shake my soul
And release my hold
Givin' up control
And let the rest unfold
Cause it's a long, long way from here to where we go
Take off the training wheels
Lift off the handle bars
I'll drive right through my fears
And resurrect my heart
In the face that I wore as a child
I can see myself
Every day of my life I'm tring just to free myself
To be myself
And the rain comes I can hear it
Like a bass drum loud and clear it's
Ancient wisdom of the spirit
Ali, Ali in come free
I'm gonna shake my soul
And release my hold
Givin' up control
And let the rest unfold
And when the forewinds blow
And the rivers flow
We're gonna rock and roll
To when it all gets told
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
I know
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
It's a long, long way from here
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
It's a long, long way from here
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
It's a long, long way from here
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
(fade out)
Anyhow, this morning I needed my morning playlist to wake me up. I put it on random, and this was the first song I heard today. I found it appropriate: Beth Nielsen Chapman, "Shake My Soul."
I had it all lined up
Then my future crashed
I heard the deadbolt lock
And there stood my past
But there are no signs for tomorrow
On the back roads of my sorrow
I could beg, steal
I could borrow
But the grace will have to come to me
I'm gonna shake my soul
And release my hold
Givin' up control
And let the rest unfold
Cause it's a long, long way from here to where we go
Take off the training wheels
Lift off the handle bars
I'll drive right through my fears
And resurrect my heart
And even in my darkest hour
When my tears stayed undercover
I know it one way or another
Love is coming back around to me
I'm gonna shake my soul
And release my hold
Givin' up control
And let the rest unfold
Cause it's a long, long way from here to where we go
Take off the training wheels
Lift off the handle bars
I'll drive right through my fears
And resurrect my heart
In the face that I wore as a child
I can see myself
Every day of my life I'm tring just to free myself
To be myself
And the rain comes I can hear it
Like a bass drum loud and clear it's
Ancient wisdom of the spirit
Ali, Ali in come free
I'm gonna shake my soul
And release my hold
Givin' up control
And let the rest unfold
And when the forewinds blow
And the rivers flow
We're gonna rock and roll
To when it all gets told
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
I know
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
It's a long, long way from here
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
It's a long, long way from here
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
It's a long, long way from here
It's a long, long way from here to where we go
(fade out)