growing up
I feel like an adult. Only because I feel like a mom watching this New Years Eve bash. It still may be Dick Clark, but I couldn't be more detached from Miley Cyrus and today's scene. I don't care, and I feel like Ryan Seacrest and all the other adults are just as detached and have to strain to act interested.
As a kid, and teen I felt like i was part of the music. Part of the movies, and part of the shows. I'm not anymore. I did watch Ally last night and smiled in memory but it wasn't the same. I suppose I have enough of my own drama that i know longer have to immerse myself into others- fiction or not. Now my problem is I'm so immersed in my own that I struggle to pay enough attention to everyone else's. Funny that my life isn't "dramatic," it's just that I'm selfish I suppose.
If i had any new years resolutions, that would be one of them- -to stay in better touch. to write letters, to make phone calls and to be a better listener. This year has been one of transition and of very nice change. I went from being depressed, alone, and lost- to found, loved, and extremely happy. My life is very complete at the moment and i feel extremely blessed. I know that only a handful of the world population gets to experience life at it's fullest, and i feel like I'm just on the brink of knowing what life can actually hold.
I posted more pictures tonight. They are very cute.
As a kid, and teen I felt like i was part of the music. Part of the movies, and part of the shows. I'm not anymore. I did watch Ally last night and smiled in memory but it wasn't the same. I suppose I have enough of my own drama that i know longer have to immerse myself into others- fiction or not. Now my problem is I'm so immersed in my own that I struggle to pay enough attention to everyone else's. Funny that my life isn't "dramatic," it's just that I'm selfish I suppose.
If i had any new years resolutions, that would be one of them- -to stay in better touch. to write letters, to make phone calls and to be a better listener. This year has been one of transition and of very nice change. I went from being depressed, alone, and lost- to found, loved, and extremely happy. My life is very complete at the moment and i feel extremely blessed. I know that only a handful of the world population gets to experience life at it's fullest, and i feel like I'm just on the brink of knowing what life can actually hold.
I posted more pictures tonight. They are very cute.