Aug 28, 2006 00:48
i am all tears..just as bad as i was at the end of the notebook..which is reallly really bad. everything is just crashing down. i knew repressing all the people i am saying goodbye too would be bad, but i can't help doing that. it is just what i do. on top of that i had to say the hardest goodbye of all..not just to a person but a friendship tonight. i am really all alone, other than tasha. my mom is sad i am not crying over missing her, but its b/c she has rasied me well enough to know that our relationship will only get better. i love her so much and now that is maker me cry harder. i love tasha. i dont want to have to leave her. but i am leaving. there is so much to look forward to and only the past here.
its my future. it has finally arrived.
oh my god, my nose is a faucet.