When is it enough?
I don't know how much more of this shit I can take? What shit am I dealing with now? The kind that comes packaged in the shape of a skinny man about 5'9. Seriously!
I went to work today and then got sent home early because I almost passed out. So, went to the ER to make sure I was okay. I have been feeling sick for a few days now and I thought it might have something to do with my asthma. Turns out, I have strep throat. Not fun I tell ya! And on top of that, I do have the beginnings of an upper respiratory infection. Fun fun!!
So, I come home thinking that I can't wait to get here. WRONG!!!! I walk in the door and the first thing I see are the dishes that have been there all day. The same dishes that I was told would get done today. Okay, then I come in to find that not only is the room still a mes and the kitchen is a wreck, but the person responsible still has not shaved like promised. (May not be a big deal to most of you, but try kissing a brilo pad and you'll see why it's an issue.)
So, I'm a little upset at all of this. But this would be different if it was the first or even the second time I've had this argument with him. No, it's almost a daily thing now. I can't stand his bitching anymore. I can't stand to be around him most days. He's fucking lazy.
Seriously. All he does is sit around on the internet all day. NOTHING ELSE gets done! He still hasn't found a job and makes no effort to do so. He doesn't help around the house. If I ask him to do something, it might get done four days later if I keep begging. And even then I get a huge attitude when he does it like it's my fault for bitching. I am so sick and fucking tired of baby sitting these kids!!!
When do I get to date a grown man? One that has a job, takes care of bills and helps around the house? I don't expect it to be all them, but some help would be damn nice.
I don't know what to do. I really don't. One hand...I want him out of here and out of my life. But on the other, I do love him. I just don't know why anymore. And I'm not that sure her loves me.
*sigh*
Oh well. I guess happiness isn't in the cards for me.
I went to work today and then got sent home early because I almost passed out. So, went to the ER to make sure I was okay. I have been feeling sick for a few days now and I thought it might have something to do with my asthma. Turns out, I have strep throat. Not fun I tell ya! And on top of that, I do have the beginnings of an upper respiratory infection. Fun fun!!
So, I come home thinking that I can't wait to get here. WRONG!!!! I walk in the door and the first thing I see are the dishes that have been there all day. The same dishes that I was told would get done today. Okay, then I come in to find that not only is the room still a mes and the kitchen is a wreck, but the person responsible still has not shaved like promised. (May not be a big deal to most of you, but try kissing a brilo pad and you'll see why it's an issue.)
So, I'm a little upset at all of this. But this would be different if it was the first or even the second time I've had this argument with him. No, it's almost a daily thing now. I can't stand his bitching anymore. I can't stand to be around him most days. He's fucking lazy.
Seriously. All he does is sit around on the internet all day. NOTHING ELSE gets done! He still hasn't found a job and makes no effort to do so. He doesn't help around the house. If I ask him to do something, it might get done four days later if I keep begging. And even then I get a huge attitude when he does it like it's my fault for bitching. I am so sick and fucking tired of baby sitting these kids!!!
When do I get to date a grown man? One that has a job, takes care of bills and helps around the house? I don't expect it to be all them, but some help would be damn nice.
I don't know what to do. I really don't. One hand...I want him out of here and out of my life. But on the other, I do love him. I just don't know why anymore. And I'm not that sure her loves me.
*sigh*
Oh well. I guess happiness isn't in the cards for me.