Oct 02, 2003 07:28
I was up late last night and now I'm tired. My mother was nice enough to keep Sebastian over night so I could belly dance and then have the evening. I've got the DVD at home now and I've belly danced almost every day this week.
Scored lots of cool jewelry last night from a friend who had an overabundance. I also discovered a really cool new stone... Petercite?
School's been enjoyable lately. I've gone through a period of slight depression due to my ever-looming situation with Sebastian. I feel better now, and more in control than before.
Adam - Your comment was good. It made me feel better, and my father is already 62. He's retiring at 65. He is NOT taking care of himself and I know the clock is ticking every minute that I'm here regardless of that. It just hurts to be reminded of it so matter-of-factly when he's feeling like lashing out.
I had lunch with Randy yesterday. It was nice to see him. I'm still keeping in mind the space issue though. I enjoy his company and I want us to be friends, but I can't open myself up to the physical attraction that always takes over. It's frustrating to keep repeating the same cycle over and over. I won't do it anymore. I feel stupid just thinking about it.
I accidentally left the patio door cracked last night and now it's freezing in the living room. Sebastian's fully dressed, though, so he's pretty much okay.
Today I have a paper to start and plenty of reading to do. Since I dropped that physics class and lab, I have three hours today while Sebastian's at daycare. Yippee!!!
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