Melancholy
I'm depressed today. It didn't hit me until after I got to school... maybe as I was leaving my Latin class.
For some reason, I started thinking about a conversation I had last night with a friend who worked at the Rennaisance fair with Abbey and Chris last summer. Apparently he's told everyone that he did show up for court and I got belligerent with a judge or something. So the story he's been feeding Abbey and everyone else is that I won't allow him visitation, so he's not required to pay child support. Additionally, there is a rumor that he's claiming to have signed the paperwork to waive his parental rights.
None of this is true. Chris never showed up at any of our court dates. I stood before the judge alone and explained to him that we hadn't seen Chris since the summer Sebastian was born. Paternity was declared, an order of support was issued, and eventually a warrant was issued for his arrest.
So I know that Abbey hasn't got the whole story. I also know she probably wouldn't listen to me if I tried to tell it to her. The friend I mentioned earlier has talked to her, but I'm not sure whether or not any of my side was recounted. I don't think so.
My depression today was the result of my remembering this conversation. It saddens me that the people I call friends don't treat me the way I would treat them -were our situations reversed. I know Matt has no idea what it's like to be abandoned, I can't expect him to... But I guess I'm hurt that my feelings weren't important enough to give him pause. Or anyone else for that matter...
For some reason, I started thinking about a conversation I had last night with a friend who worked at the Rennaisance fair with Abbey and Chris last summer. Apparently he's told everyone that he did show up for court and I got belligerent with a judge or something. So the story he's been feeding Abbey and everyone else is that I won't allow him visitation, so he's not required to pay child support. Additionally, there is a rumor that he's claiming to have signed the paperwork to waive his parental rights.
None of this is true. Chris never showed up at any of our court dates. I stood before the judge alone and explained to him that we hadn't seen Chris since the summer Sebastian was born. Paternity was declared, an order of support was issued, and eventually a warrant was issued for his arrest.
So I know that Abbey hasn't got the whole story. I also know she probably wouldn't listen to me if I tried to tell it to her. The friend I mentioned earlier has talked to her, but I'm not sure whether or not any of my side was recounted. I don't think so.
My depression today was the result of my remembering this conversation. It saddens me that the people I call friends don't treat me the way I would treat them -were our situations reversed. I know Matt has no idea what it's like to be abandoned, I can't expect him to... But I guess I'm hurt that my feelings weren't important enough to give him pause. Or anyone else for that matter...