Cancer
I have a respect for cancer that I never wanted to have. I've known people that have died from it, seen people withered from it and watched the people I love suffer because of it. After all of that I say one thing, "I hate it."
If there is one thing that the Universe can visit upon a person that makes me say that the world is unfair, that the a higher power doesn't care, that things are not as they should be than it is Cancer.
Fuck Cancer, choose life, Fuck Cancer, and love, Fuck Cancer, and live every moment as if it were your last, Fuck Cancer, and do those things that you want.
Please don't ever hold back because it isn't the right time or it can wait till the weather is better or the money is in the bank. I just don't care, life is way too short.
When I was 8 my mother lost her best friend and her best friend's son was my best friend. I held my mother then as best an 8yr old could do while she cried but I knew being there to hold her was the right thing. And now I held a sweetie and held her as best I could against the waves and tied that was coming. I am so glad she is with her family and husband right now and that *she* is holding another who needs her help.
I really didn't know how to voice all of the conflict and pain I was feeling about this. I just want those I love to be safe and alive and know that they are going to be ok and that I love them.
I think in all I just don't want to see people hurt, people suffer loss, people feel pain or people grieve. And I do feel so very small for all the times I said it would be ok and yet it wasn't. I will try better next time I promise.
If there is one thing that the Universe can visit upon a person that makes me say that the world is unfair, that the a higher power doesn't care, that things are not as they should be than it is Cancer.
Fuck Cancer, choose life, Fuck Cancer, and love, Fuck Cancer, and live every moment as if it were your last, Fuck Cancer, and do those things that you want.
Please don't ever hold back because it isn't the right time or it can wait till the weather is better or the money is in the bank. I just don't care, life is way too short.
When I was 8 my mother lost her best friend and her best friend's son was my best friend. I held my mother then as best an 8yr old could do while she cried but I knew being there to hold her was the right thing. And now I held a sweetie and held her as best I could against the waves and tied that was coming. I am so glad she is with her family and husband right now and that *she* is holding another who needs her help.
I really didn't know how to voice all of the conflict and pain I was feeling about this. I just want those I love to be safe and alive and know that they are going to be ok and that I love them.
I think in all I just don't want to see people hurt, people suffer loss, people feel pain or people grieve. And I do feel so very small for all the times I said it would be ok and yet it wasn't. I will try better next time I promise.