I can't seem to reach anyone who believes in God and I know that some of you do. I'd really appreciate your feedback on my situation and your belief on how God does (or doesn't) manage our path, give us clues, etc
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My doctor is fully aware of my issues and that I am fixated on cancer. In the last five years I have had the fear of colon, pancreatic, ovarian, uteran, breast, brain, leg and skin cancer at some point or another.
For the vast majority based on one or two symptoms that I share with the disease(all of which could be symptomatic of something else or nothing at all.)
I have also - helpfully - assigned sensations to cancers that aren't even symptoms (ie. I'll read the list of symptoms of pancreatic cancer and only have one or perhaps two -if I really stretch - of them and then a couple of hours later feel a pain in the general area I think my pancreas is, and have the thought that it's pancreatic cancer, even though pain, is NOT one of the symptoms of that cancer.)
So hopefully that gives you a picture of how fixated I am - and to what degree it is out of my control.
The thing is that I recently told my doctor that the reason I liked her was that she didn't order a lot of excessive tests just because she can. I went through that a couple of years ago when my previous very thorough doctor checked me for everything I threw at her. The problem is that the tests themselves created such a high level of anxiety that I came through it all feeling like I could benefit from a different approach.
Then I met this new doctor and she just flat out says when she isn't worried about things. She asks questions, clarifies what I should more be looking for (ie. I said that I was worried about ovarian cancer because of certain things, she listened and then explained how I was misunderstanding the reading I'd done and how ovarian cancer would actually present- but she didn't send me for a test.)
I prefer her approach - but I am going to mention my new concerns when I see her next and see what she says.
For the vast majority based on one or two symptoms that I share with the disease(all of which could be symptomatic of something else or nothing at all.)
I have also - helpfully - assigned sensations to cancers that aren't even symptoms (ie. I'll read the list of symptoms of pancreatic cancer and only have one or perhaps two -if I really stretch - of them and then a couple of hours later feel a pain in the general area I think my pancreas is, and have the thought that it's pancreatic cancer, even though pain, is NOT one of the symptoms of that cancer.)
So hopefully that gives you a picture of how fixated I am - and to what degree it is out of my control.
The thing is that I recently told my doctor that the reason I liked her was that she didn't order a lot of excessive tests just because she can. I went through that a couple of years ago when my previous very thorough doctor checked me for everything I threw at her. The problem is that the tests themselves created such a high level of anxiety that I came through it all feeling like I could benefit from a different approach.
Then I met this new doctor and she just flat out says when she isn't worried about things. She asks questions, clarifies what I should more be looking for (ie. I said that I was worried about ovarian cancer because of certain things, she listened and then explained how I was misunderstanding the reading I'd done and how ovarian cancer would actually present- but she didn't send me for a test.)
I prefer her approach - but I am going to mention my new concerns when I see her next and see what she says.
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