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So far. So good. As far as today goes.
Work is busy as hell, and I briefly thought of just powering through, but I had to stop and gratitude. Right now my mental health is my number one priority. Nothing can come before it.
1) I'm grateful that my doggo is healthy. I coincidentally moved just before the massive dog food recall. When I moved I had to change my premium dog food store. The new store didn't carry my old brands and recommended that I switch Sophie to dog food for Senior dogs. I did that, and a week later the dog foods she had been on were on that recall list. So much gratitude for my happy and healthy doggo.
2) I'm grateful for my therapist. She's helping!
3) I'm grateful for feeling well today.
4)I'm grateful that I am becoming better at making decisions that are good for me. That is one thing I am loving about my 30's. So much more clarity on who I am, and what I value. On Saturday night I was somewhere I didn't want to be. I threw a very tiny pity party for myself and then stood up and said "Screw this.I'm going somewhere I want to be." So I left the pretty lesbians to their pretentious party and met up with the boys at El Conventorico. (NOTE TO SELF. You HATE SAVOUR.)
I had two big AHA! moments this weekend. The first was when I decided that I am cutting myself off from incessently repeating stories about medical tests. Repeating the stories just gives them power that they shouldn't have. It gives the emotions I was feeling power they shouldn't have. It just builds and builds into something that it isn't. There is also a component of pity party going on. And I'm cutting myself off from that too. No more pity parties for me. Life is good.
The second AHA moment was when I read that the subconcious mind cannot tell the difference between real thoughts and imagined thoughts. I am always thinking of myself as sick, I am imagining myself sick, I am imagining myself telling my family and friends that I am sick. This is making me sick. So I am launching serious ongoing intentional cognitive intervention everytime I find myself musing on my health. I am well.
In conclusion - life is good. I am well. Also. Jared.
Work is busy as hell, and I briefly thought of just powering through, but I had to stop and gratitude. Right now my mental health is my number one priority. Nothing can come before it.
1) I'm grateful that my doggo is healthy. I coincidentally moved just before the massive dog food recall. When I moved I had to change my premium dog food store. The new store didn't carry my old brands and recommended that I switch Sophie to dog food for Senior dogs. I did that, and a week later the dog foods she had been on were on that recall list. So much gratitude for my happy and healthy doggo.
2) I'm grateful for my therapist. She's helping!
3) I'm grateful for feeling well today.
4)I'm grateful that I am becoming better at making decisions that are good for me. That is one thing I am loving about my 30's. So much more clarity on who I am, and what I value. On Saturday night I was somewhere I didn't want to be. I threw a very tiny pity party for myself and then stood up and said "Screw this.I'm going somewhere I want to be." So I left the pretty lesbians to their pretentious party and met up with the boys at El Conventorico. (NOTE TO SELF. You HATE SAVOUR.)
I had two big AHA! moments this weekend. The first was when I decided that I am cutting myself off from incessently repeating stories about medical tests. Repeating the stories just gives them power that they shouldn't have. It gives the emotions I was feeling power they shouldn't have. It just builds and builds into something that it isn't. There is also a component of pity party going on. And I'm cutting myself off from that too. No more pity parties for me. Life is good.
The second AHA moment was when I read that the subconcious mind cannot tell the difference between real thoughts and imagined thoughts. I am always thinking of myself as sick, I am imagining myself sick, I am imagining myself telling my family and friends that I am sick. This is making me sick. So I am launching serious ongoing intentional cognitive intervention everytime I find myself musing on my health. I am well.
In conclusion - life is good. I am well. Also. Jared.