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homecoming was pretty good...
give or take a few things.
it would have been nice to have a date
but my amazing friends made up for that.
andd im very proud--
cause even though i got a little upset during some parts of the dance..i actually let myself have fun. crazy, i know.
i promised myself when i was getting ready for work this morning that im going to stop punishing myself for things i cant control. i also realized that i define myself by my relationships--i'll do anything to be loved, because thats what i feel makes me worthy.
thats not right, and it needs to stop. my flesh wants a boyfriend. my spirit wants God. im thinking that in the long run, boys who break my heart wont hold a candle compared to that most important thing i my life. (or what should be)
SO
basically--its time to get my priorities in order.
its just too bad it took 3 boys and a broken heart to see all this.
ready,
set,
go
give or take a few things.
it would have been nice to have a date
but my amazing friends made up for that.
andd im very proud--
cause even though i got a little upset during some parts of the dance..i actually let myself have fun. crazy, i know.
i promised myself when i was getting ready for work this morning that im going to stop punishing myself for things i cant control. i also realized that i define myself by my relationships--i'll do anything to be loved, because thats what i feel makes me worthy.
thats not right, and it needs to stop. my flesh wants a boyfriend. my spirit wants God. im thinking that in the long run, boys who break my heart wont hold a candle compared to that most important thing i my life. (or what should be)
SO
basically--its time to get my priorities in order.
its just too bad it took 3 boys and a broken heart to see all this.
ready,
set,
go