Just needed to write it down
Oh my god, it has been a really long time since I have written something down here. Right now, I just want to write it down ... I didn't really care where, but not everyone I know is here, so this is the perfect way. Just ignore my grammar and my english because I know I am not that good... but I don't care that much right now.
Well the reason I wanted to write in here is, that my relationship with my boyfriend ended two days ago. I even cannot say that this was a relationship, because the past 3-4 months we haven't seen each other much, haven't spent much time together nor went out. We only met at my sis place and that really got on my nerves.
So when he decided he wanted to talk to me, I knew he will talk about us, but I also know him. I knew something is going on so I said, that if he wants to finish it, we should do it. We should stop this farce, we didn't have to see each other. He even said he has a crush on the sister of my sisters husband and the best ever, I know for sure, that he WON'T have any chance.
That is the reason why I think, he will come again, but I won't do this again. He hasn't changed a bit, not after all those time I knew him. You need to know, we were together back then (10 years ago) and it was the same. He found someone else who was more stupid than me, when he knew, he got her, he left me without a word ...he just took his stuff and left.
So when we came together, I really knew I shouldn't put too much into this. I loved him in some way, but never like I should have. And maybe that is the reason why I am OK. I am not sad, I am not crying like he thought, I am totally OK and I even celebrated on the day we broke off!!
And deep down I already knew, that this relationship or farce wouldn't last. I mean, when we came together, he wanted to move in here, in my apartment and I denied. Well it was the best decision ever and later on, he asked me more than one time for money. But I didn't borrow him money, I know how he is when it comes to money. He lives just for the day, for the now and not for later. He has debts, he hasn't gotten an own apartment and still doesn't change anything. So why in hell should I borrow him money??
I already told him, when this will be a problem for us, then it would be really sad. In the end it would, because after the third time his behave changed. And after his brother moved out and he got his "room" at hotel mama! He didn't need me anymore, so why should he care? The only thing left of this farce is the bed I bought because of him, because he got on my nerves and well... I will kick it out as soon as possible. Then everything is like it was and well... he can go his way without my help and I will watch him go down.
I could learn, that some people never change, he is such a person and I feel pity for his next girlfriend, because he will always be the same. Find someone, move in and then... everything is done... until they break up. He will never be able to live a normal live. But that isn't something I am involved anymore. I am free now and I know for sure, when he will come again, to ask for another chance, I will deny. My sis, her husband and my friends would kick me if I would be that stupid again.
I am just glad I have them. They never betrayed me or lied to me like he did. I learned my lesson, there are some people who will always be the same and just trust your heart. And if a relationship hasn't much chance to last, try it or better, leave it. I guess I would pick the second one from now on. When a relationship is only about one person, then it suck.
That is what I got from this ... relationship or farce.
So I guess that is everything, I just needed to write it down =)
Well the reason I wanted to write in here is, that my relationship with my boyfriend ended two days ago. I even cannot say that this was a relationship, because the past 3-4 months we haven't seen each other much, haven't spent much time together nor went out. We only met at my sis place and that really got on my nerves.
So when he decided he wanted to talk to me, I knew he will talk about us, but I also know him. I knew something is going on so I said, that if he wants to finish it, we should do it. We should stop this farce, we didn't have to see each other. He even said he has a crush on the sister of my sisters husband and the best ever, I know for sure, that he WON'T have any chance.
That is the reason why I think, he will come again, but I won't do this again. He hasn't changed a bit, not after all those time I knew him. You need to know, we were together back then (10 years ago) and it was the same. He found someone else who was more stupid than me, when he knew, he got her, he left me without a word ...he just took his stuff and left.
So when we came together, I really knew I shouldn't put too much into this. I loved him in some way, but never like I should have. And maybe that is the reason why I am OK. I am not sad, I am not crying like he thought, I am totally OK and I even celebrated on the day we broke off!!
And deep down I already knew, that this relationship or farce wouldn't last. I mean, when we came together, he wanted to move in here, in my apartment and I denied. Well it was the best decision ever and later on, he asked me more than one time for money. But I didn't borrow him money, I know how he is when it comes to money. He lives just for the day, for the now and not for later. He has debts, he hasn't gotten an own apartment and still doesn't change anything. So why in hell should I borrow him money??
I already told him, when this will be a problem for us, then it would be really sad. In the end it would, because after the third time his behave changed. And after his brother moved out and he got his "room" at hotel mama! He didn't need me anymore, so why should he care? The only thing left of this farce is the bed I bought because of him, because he got on my nerves and well... I will kick it out as soon as possible. Then everything is like it was and well... he can go his way without my help and I will watch him go down.
I could learn, that some people never change, he is such a person and I feel pity for his next girlfriend, because he will always be the same. Find someone, move in and then... everything is done... until they break up. He will never be able to live a normal live. But that isn't something I am involved anymore. I am free now and I know for sure, when he will come again, to ask for another chance, I will deny. My sis, her husband and my friends would kick me if I would be that stupid again.
I am just glad I have them. They never betrayed me or lied to me like he did. I learned my lesson, there are some people who will always be the same and just trust your heart. And if a relationship hasn't much chance to last, try it or better, leave it. I guess I would pick the second one from now on. When a relationship is only about one person, then it suck.
That is what I got from this ... relationship or farce.
So I guess that is everything, I just needed to write it down =)