lalala...
*so im really excited today for krystal's baby shower (nooo not our crsytal -note the
"k"-don't freak) but im not leaving for another hour and 1/2 so i hafta
keeep my jumpy self busy.
*this week was ok. had a really good/long talk with nina which we hadnt had in a long
time so it was needed and def. made my night. i <3 her and am HELLA
xcited for her bday! holy shit its gonna rock or imma rock someone
(--no noone imparticular in mind)
*mel n dave had their one yr a week ago today! YAY! me n crys are lame n gave them a card.
*kate was gonna instruct me on pulling a "her" on my new crush (yes, that's right
new crush. he's PERFECT for me. ... he just doesnt know it yet ) but i
missed 4th period so i have yet to learn. and p.c. was lame anyway
cause 1. there was like 8 of us there 2. i lost at bingo and 3. carly
couldnt come b/c she had a physics test. its straight tho- no math
every other firday for me for the rest of the year! hot shit.
*and mitch is pissing me off. although, i know im not the only one. we should make a
club. that kid needs a smack down. (egh, but i <3 him )
*oh, and kiera n i met the new boyfriend (of my mommy's) this past week too. egh, he's
ok. not my favorite by far, but def. not the worst either. but his
daughter (in college now) went to marion! small small world it is man.
but i can see it (him+my mom) lasting.
*haha chelsea made my day on ...wed was it? haha we have to do TATU at parker on fri
and ... ya got NOTHING. we're about to wing it. last yr i told this
prissy looking snobby 8th grade girl that unless she wanted to look/be
like ozzy osbourbe that she better stop smoking. im pretty sure she had
a minni stroke right in front of me.
*doens't it seem like, i mean i know people change and it is inevitable but, this
week i felt like i blink for a second and people are the complete
opposite from what you remember them being. or maybe i was just looking
the other way the whole time. maybe i just didn't want to see it. or
wasnt ready to, but damn. im not any more ready now either. and how
people want you to go back to something. something that was so
unbeleivable while you had it, but then you lost it and since then have
been working your ass off to hate it. or forget it. to change your own
perception of it, lying to yourself. but now theyre trying to convince
you to get it back. and you know that in a second, you could change
your perception back to the awesomness but that you shouldnt. bc if it
gets aweful again, you're gonna have to start all over making yourself
get over it. and you dont know if you could do that again. you dont
want to take the chance. isn't it amazing, that how aweful things get
with someone, when you look back on it, all you remember are the good
times? im afraid that that's gonna come around to bite me in the ass.
*thanks to kara and crys btw- for saving me last night.
*8 DAYS till melanie's birthday!
*24 DAYS till nina's birthday!
if *you* knew that you would -find- a {truth} that :brings: a pain that can't be ~soothed~ would you c.h.a.n.g.e?