Journal Entry: Consideration
I have to say that I don't think I've been so...calm... in years. But it's not a peaceful calm, which shouldn't make any sense. But it does. To me, at least. I've gotten off the ship, and I've just been somewhat enjoying myself. I hunt, I eat, I sleep, and I think. There is nothing more to my life right now, and I'm content with that. There are no other people around, as I've found a secluded area to stay, and that's nice too. A lack of people means a lack of violence right now, and violence, however temporarily satisfying it may be, is not what I need.
Planning is.
I'll admit that there are a few people I miss, and some things I'd like to do back in Amber. But the people will be there when I return, and the things I need to do can wait. Some must wait, until I'm done here. Not only could my perspective change, but so could my plans. I need to meet my family. I need to apologize to Niamh for disappearing on her, since I only told one person I was leaving. I need to figure out what to do about the menfolk, since it seems not a single man I've been interested in can be what I want. They can't be faithful, they can't care, and oddly, they say I'm not what I seem though they are the few I hold nothing back with. Maybe I should switch it around, so men are the ones I pretend around.
I'm still not sure what to do about Zane. Can't stand his choice in mate, or the fact that he told everyone else and made me hear about it second hand. Asshole. How dare he not tell me after he meddled in my life?
Nor do I know what to think about Deacon. From threats of arrest to watching me while I slept. Maybe I shouldn't try to figure him out. He'd just end up like the others anyway.
For now though...It's time for me relax. There's a hammock with my name on it.
Planning is.
I'll admit that there are a few people I miss, and some things I'd like to do back in Amber. But the people will be there when I return, and the things I need to do can wait. Some must wait, until I'm done here. Not only could my perspective change, but so could my plans. I need to meet my family. I need to apologize to Niamh for disappearing on her, since I only told one person I was leaving. I need to figure out what to do about the menfolk, since it seems not a single man I've been interested in can be what I want. They can't be faithful, they can't care, and oddly, they say I'm not what I seem though they are the few I hold nothing back with. Maybe I should switch it around, so men are the ones I pretend around.
I'm still not sure what to do about Zane. Can't stand his choice in mate, or the fact that he told everyone else and made me hear about it second hand. Asshole. How dare he not tell me after he meddled in my life?
Nor do I know what to think about Deacon. From threats of arrest to watching me while I slept. Maybe I shouldn't try to figure him out. He'd just end up like the others anyway.
For now though...It's time for me relax. There's a hammock with my name on it.