Goodnight and go
I like studying alone. I like hanging out with friends and developing actual friendships. In law school there is often no time for doing both.
I just find it so strange sometimes, when I study with other people.
Then again there are certain people I can study with.
What am I saying?
Law school. Law school is fine. I'm actually happy, believe it or not. Despite underpar midterm grades and the strange toll the past few months have taken on my body (yesterday my wrist hurt. A wrist is a strange place to hurt.), I'm actually content with the little routine I've built around it.
Of course once in a while I try to find little pockets of excitement. Little kinds of change. More often than not though, there is no time to keep up or explore them, so I just go back.
Because I don't need to go soul searching. I don't need to bring strange things in my life. I like it here.
Where exactly?
(Well right now, in a table in the lib, surrounded by post-its, a book, and different colored pens.
But what I meant is, here. Wherever this, is.
What I do know is that this is the first time in a while that I didn't need to be so...so...everywhere. Maybe that's why I feel unsettled nowadays. Strangely enough that's what my dad told me exactly to do in law school, settle down, keep your head down, push through, kapit lang.
Like I'm on the titanic or something and I just found a lifeboat. Hahaha.
Alright alright, let's get back to studying. Must keep up the pretense that I actually function in this place.
- Patricia
I just find it so strange sometimes, when I study with other people.
Then again there are certain people I can study with.
What am I saying?
Law school. Law school is fine. I'm actually happy, believe it or not. Despite underpar midterm grades and the strange toll the past few months have taken on my body (yesterday my wrist hurt. A wrist is a strange place to hurt.), I'm actually content with the little routine I've built around it.
Of course once in a while I try to find little pockets of excitement. Little kinds of change. More often than not though, there is no time to keep up or explore them, so I just go back.
Because I don't need to go soul searching. I don't need to bring strange things in my life. I like it here.
Where exactly?
(Well right now, in a table in the lib, surrounded by post-its, a book, and different colored pens.
But what I meant is, here. Wherever this, is.
What I do know is that this is the first time in a while that I didn't need to be so...so...everywhere. Maybe that's why I feel unsettled nowadays. Strangely enough that's what my dad told me exactly to do in law school, settle down, keep your head down, push through, kapit lang.
Like I'm on the titanic or something and I just found a lifeboat. Hahaha.
Alright alright, let's get back to studying. Must keep up the pretense that I actually function in this place.
- Patricia