The Real is Not
I think I'm falling back into another depression of sorts. Except, only socially.
People keep pissing me off, and more and more I feel estranged from once-close friends. I've been a real bitch lately, and I'm not entirely sure why that is. But I do have the desire to push everyone away and be done with them, because I'm getting tired of their crap.
They're probably tired of mine, too.
I am in need of a major change for the better. Which is why I've been focusing on school/career things like getting into the Peace Corps, and less on meeting people. So far, 'meeting people' hasn't been very beneficial for me. That may be because I've changed and my behavior in certain situations has changed, but regardless that's how I feel. I am going to change my outlook on a lot of things that have been hurting me in the long run, or without my knowing until it's too late.
Time to focus on what's important: school, volunteering, activism, politics, and family.
At least I've been enjoying my summer well enough, I guess. Last week I went to an Angel's game with Nicole and some friends of hers, and met some cool people. On September 11th we left for San Francisco to visit Jessica in her new digs, and Aliy in Santa Cruz. Good times were had, although there were some rough edges. The weather was amazing. Tonight I'm going out to Hollywood with Nicole; I typically wouldn't be down to go since I'm sick of Hollywood already, but I think it'll be fun.
This weekend my mom and I are thinking of going on a somewhat spontaneous roadtrip up to Eugene, Oregon. We've been wanting to go, and it's either this weekend or Thanksgiving... the weather will be better right now (not as cold), so we want to go now. I'm excited. I've been wanting to go to Oregon very much to see beautiful greenery and meet natural-living obsessed folks that are eco- and animal-friendly. :)
Then later this month, classes start. Then there's Tribal LA the weekend after school starts, and I've signed up for two bellydance classes (one with Sharon Kihara again, and another with Zoe Jakes) I'm super excited for. I need to start exercising like mad before that comes up. Flogging Molly will be the Tuesday following that weekend. :D
Sigh. Anyway, I'm out.
People keep pissing me off, and more and more I feel estranged from once-close friends. I've been a real bitch lately, and I'm not entirely sure why that is. But I do have the desire to push everyone away and be done with them, because I'm getting tired of their crap.
They're probably tired of mine, too.
I am in need of a major change for the better. Which is why I've been focusing on school/career things like getting into the Peace Corps, and less on meeting people. So far, 'meeting people' hasn't been very beneficial for me. That may be because I've changed and my behavior in certain situations has changed, but regardless that's how I feel. I am going to change my outlook on a lot of things that have been hurting me in the long run, or without my knowing until it's too late.
Time to focus on what's important: school, volunteering, activism, politics, and family.
At least I've been enjoying my summer well enough, I guess. Last week I went to an Angel's game with Nicole and some friends of hers, and met some cool people. On September 11th we left for San Francisco to visit Jessica in her new digs, and Aliy in Santa Cruz. Good times were had, although there were some rough edges. The weather was amazing. Tonight I'm going out to Hollywood with Nicole; I typically wouldn't be down to go since I'm sick of Hollywood already, but I think it'll be fun.
This weekend my mom and I are thinking of going on a somewhat spontaneous roadtrip up to Eugene, Oregon. We've been wanting to go, and it's either this weekend or Thanksgiving... the weather will be better right now (not as cold), so we want to go now. I'm excited. I've been wanting to go to Oregon very much to see beautiful greenery and meet natural-living obsessed folks that are eco- and animal-friendly. :)
Then later this month, classes start. Then there's Tribal LA the weekend after school starts, and I've signed up for two bellydance classes (one with Sharon Kihara again, and another with Zoe Jakes) I'm super excited for. I need to start exercising like mad before that comes up. Flogging Molly will be the Tuesday following that weekend. :D
Sigh. Anyway, I'm out.