LONG TIME NO POST!!! XD
Hi dearies! :D
(I wonder though if anyone does read my posts? hahaha)
Anyways, it's been almost 8 months since my last post here.. A fic update post for Perfect Lover if I remember it right.. hahaha I'm a bit behind with my fics but rest assured, they'll posted soon.....I hope. haha But really, I have some fic prompts written in my handy-dandy notebook, and whenever I have inspirations, I continue writing them~ Let's just say, I'm not yet that confident in posting them all here.. But soon~ I'll be able to post them ^^
Hmmmmm... Since last year, a lot of things had happened, both in the fandom world and real life..
In the fandom world, there's:
I just hope that the second half of 2016 wouldn't be so bad.. *yea, positive vibes working here* XD
I miss KAT-TUN, seriously. It's different when I see them doing individual stuff like Kame having his baseball-related stuff, Uepi doing the awesome Sports TV show and well, Maruniichan doing his superb stints in Shuichi and other shows (I love the one where he showed his apartment.. Rich!Maru desu yo~). I still flail over these three's individual stuffs, but there's the part when I really miss seeing KAT-TUN as a whole. I miss the girigiri mode during the announcements for the singles and albums releases, the flailing over how awesome KAT-TUN is as a group in TV guestings, the anticipation over their regular shows (damn, TameTabi should return once the hiatus ends! And sorry to the current hosts but, I hope KAT-TUN would be able to get back their hosting stint in SCP.. They were doing great with the show and thru SCP, they were showing their amazing side more.. T^T).
I miss KAT-TUN soooo much... It hurts not seeing them as group right now. But I know and I understand that this hiatus maybe is just what they need right now, so that they'll be able to rest their "brokenness" from being left behind.. As much as I am hurt with their hiatus, I also feel proud of them doing great as group despite being not in the "limelight" as a whole. (Yep, I'm talking about the recent news of their DVDs getting back into rankings and these three guys gathering lots of attention in their respective individual stuffs).
There's a part of me that's scared of what might happen once the hiatus ends, but for now, I am rooting for the better result, which is that these three would continue on and carry the KAT-TUN name and prove to everyone how awesome they are.
Anywaaaays, the reason why I'm still alive after all the heartaches KAT-TUN fandom has given me is because of another fandom that somehow relieved the pain of my fangirl heart...the EXILE fandom. It started when I was having thoughts of ending my life during my birth month, EXILE ATSUSHI's and EXILE's music somehow helped change those thoughts. And when the announcement came about Junno's retirement, it was ATSUSHI's song that helped me cope up with the news. I know I sound as if I'm leaving KAT-TUN for EXILE, but that's not the case. My love for KAT-TUN grew more with the help of EXILE's music. Sound weird ne? XD
So there. Right now, I'm in two fandoms, and I hope my fangirl heart survives this. haha
I'll end my ramblings here, coz I don't know what to say anymore. XD Maybe the real reason for this post is for me to finally take all the bitterness out of me and the sadness and the loneliness of fangirling. haha
Sorry for making such a long post and not entirely sure what I really wanted to point out haha
Thanks for reading though~ :D
(I wonder though if anyone does read my posts? hahaha)
Anyways, it's been almost 8 months since my last post here.. A fic update post for Perfect Lover if I remember it right.. hahaha I'm a bit behind with my fics but rest assured, they'll posted soon.....I hope. haha But really, I have some fic prompts written in my handy-dandy notebook, and whenever I have inspirations, I continue writing them~ Let's just say, I'm not yet that confident in posting them all here.. But soon~ I'll be able to post them ^^
Hmmmmm... Since last year, a lot of things had happened, both in the fandom world and real life..
In the fandom world, there's:
- KAT-TUN's surprise announcement about Taguchi's "retirement" from Johnny's
- then came the 10Ks concert
- which was then followed by KAT-TUN's "indefinite" hiatus T^T (which results now to totally missing them sooooo much... T^T)
- me almost commiting something that would have ended my life. Fortunately, the "positive" side of me got the better hand which made me think twice of what I was about to do...
- then came the excitement towards KAT-TUN's concert (despite the fact that it would be their last concert as 4nin) because back then, I thought that I would be able to fly to Japan to watch it live,
- but then, luck wasn't in my side since my visa application got denied (despite all the preparations and excitement that I've felt... Seriously, this one is the biggest cause of my depression this past two months) so I wasn't able to join my co-fangirls in Tokyo,
- and the latest one is, *drumrolls* me almost getting sacked from work.. At first, I thought I'd only have to be in my work right now until the end of June, but *fortunately*, they extended my stay until august.. Soooo, I only have until august to find a new work.. T^T
I just hope that the second half of 2016 wouldn't be so bad.. *yea, positive vibes working here* XD
I miss KAT-TUN, seriously. It's different when I see them doing individual stuff like Kame having his baseball-related stuff, Uepi doing the awesome Sports TV show and well, Maruniichan doing his superb stints in Shuichi and other shows (I love the one where he showed his apartment.. Rich!Maru desu yo~). I still flail over these three's individual stuffs, but there's the part when I really miss seeing KAT-TUN as a whole. I miss the girigiri mode during the announcements for the singles and albums releases, the flailing over how awesome KAT-TUN is as a group in TV guestings, the anticipation over their regular shows (damn, TameTabi should return once the hiatus ends! And sorry to the current hosts but, I hope KAT-TUN would be able to get back their hosting stint in SCP.. They were doing great with the show and thru SCP, they were showing their amazing side more.. T^T).
I miss KAT-TUN soooo much... It hurts not seeing them as group right now. But I know and I understand that this hiatus maybe is just what they need right now, so that they'll be able to rest their "brokenness" from being left behind.. As much as I am hurt with their hiatus, I also feel proud of them doing great as group despite being not in the "limelight" as a whole. (Yep, I'm talking about the recent news of their DVDs getting back into rankings and these three guys gathering lots of attention in their respective individual stuffs).
There's a part of me that's scared of what might happen once the hiatus ends, but for now, I am rooting for the better result, which is that these three would continue on and carry the KAT-TUN name and prove to everyone how awesome they are.
Anywaaaays, the reason why I'm still alive after all the heartaches KAT-TUN fandom has given me is because of another fandom that somehow relieved the pain of my fangirl heart...the EXILE fandom. It started when I was having thoughts of ending my life during my birth month, EXILE ATSUSHI's and EXILE's music somehow helped change those thoughts. And when the announcement came about Junno's retirement, it was ATSUSHI's song that helped me cope up with the news. I know I sound as if I'm leaving KAT-TUN for EXILE, but that's not the case. My love for KAT-TUN grew more with the help of EXILE's music. Sound weird ne? XD
So there. Right now, I'm in two fandoms, and I hope my fangirl heart survives this. haha
I'll end my ramblings here, coz I don't know what to say anymore. XD Maybe the real reason for this post is for me to finally take all the bitterness out of me and the sadness and the loneliness of fangirling. haha
Sorry for making such a long post and not entirely sure what I really wanted to point out haha
Thanks for reading though~ :D