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I had a near death experience saturday morning while driving to Wenatchee for our service project.
I wasn't phased by my car spinning because of pressing the breaks too hard or the fact that I had gone too fast around the corner, or even my car hitting the rocks twice. I was phased at the fact that I didn't give a shit that I coulld have died, that I could have been hurt. All I cared about was getting to the service project. I didn't want to take time to think about something that would just take more time.
That scares the shit out of me. I'm in a daze about it. I drove back this morning and passed the spot-but to be honest I couldn't tell ya where it happened at. I drove normally instead of the wreckless driver that I had apparently become.
It's weird to think that I really didn't care about myself at all, that I was just completely ignoring the fact that because of my stupidity I could have hurt myself. And I didn't care, did not give a fuck about it-that's even more scary.
on a lighter note got to spend the weekend with my friend. And learned how to play some chords on the guitar:-) that's awesome.
Anyways, going to try and have a normal day and not think about this.
I wasn't phased by my car spinning because of pressing the breaks too hard or the fact that I had gone too fast around the corner, or even my car hitting the rocks twice. I was phased at the fact that I didn't give a shit that I coulld have died, that I could have been hurt. All I cared about was getting to the service project. I didn't want to take time to think about something that would just take more time.
That scares the shit out of me. I'm in a daze about it. I drove back this morning and passed the spot-but to be honest I couldn't tell ya where it happened at. I drove normally instead of the wreckless driver that I had apparently become.
It's weird to think that I really didn't care about myself at all, that I was just completely ignoring the fact that because of my stupidity I could have hurt myself. And I didn't care, did not give a fuck about it-that's even more scary.
on a lighter note got to spend the weekend with my friend. And learned how to play some chords on the guitar:-) that's awesome.
Anyways, going to try and have a normal day and not think about this.