Fic: Circuit-Breaking

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Title: Circuit-Breaking
Rating: PG
Word Count: 1,631
Spoilers: none
Warnings: um, angst?
Disclaimer: not mine, no profit
Summary: John makes the decision to cut himself off from his boys in the weeks leading up to the pilot.

A/N: beta'd by the ever lovely

Comments

[ariadnes_string]

yup *gulp*

thanks again for reading--and hand-holding--and reading again! *smishes you*

[laurie_bug]

Oh, nicely done! I really thought you captured John in all his screwed-up glory, especially the fact that, no matter what, he's a FATHER first. A great metaphor for the Winchester bond, too -- and sleeping boys? That is LOVE.

[ariadnes_string]

Thanks so much for reading--glad you enjoyed it! The sleeping boys image was the kernel of the whole thing, so I'm glad it worked for you--

[kitanabychoice]

Very well done! I like the way that John comes to realized how toxic some things about their lifestyle really is, as well as the electric imagery used to describe his thoughts.

Thank you for sharing :)

[ariadnes_string]

Thanks--and thanks for reading! Yeah, I guess it might be wishful thinking, but I do like to think that some part of him worried about what he was doing to his kids, even as he couldn't help it or do otherwise...

[angelus2hot]

Oh my *cries*

This is amazing! It took me a few episodes to warm up to John but when I did he became one of my favorites. You managed to capture his character perfectly!

[ariadnes_string]

wow--look at your icon--that's gorgeous!

Thanks for your kind words about this fic--I feel the same way about John, and this is the only story I've written from his POV--he hits a little close to home for me....But I'm glad he came across okay--

[angelus2hot]

the John icon was made by sweetgirl7808 and is totally snaggable if you want it :)

Are you kidding? He came across PERFECTLY! I've only written John once myself but it was in a naughty, smutty BtVS crossover.

[ariadnes_string]

XD

cool! I might just snag it :)

[taste_is_sweet]

Still going through your back catalogue. :D

I barely know these characters, but this story was incredibly moving and heartbreaking. This part here:

He was thinking about the way all your children’s flaws and weaknesses felt like your own fault, like things they would have been spared if only you’d done your job right. But the good things in them seemed to appear out of nowhere, as if by magic.

made me cry, because like you I'm a mommy and this is exactly what it's like, isn't it? This was like you pulled the words out of my heart.

Your story also made me very glad I still lift up Javier and hug him whenever I can, and I'll do it as long as he'll let me.

[ariadnes_string]

I'm so glad you liked this one--I have a soft spot for it myself (though I just read it through and wanted to take out about 50 extra words). But, yeah, I'm really glad it spoke to something you recognized about parenting. I hardly ever write fic with John Winchester in it, because, single parent, two boys, kinda too close to home, but when I do it's kind of wrenching for me too--

Thanks so much for reading all of these!

[taste_is_sweet]

You're welcome. And thank you for taking the time, energy and effort to write these wonderful stories when you have so much going on in your life.