Day 5: Six things You Wish You'd DONE
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Honestly, there are very few things that I wish I'd never done. I'm great at NOT doing things. I've lived most of my life being extremely demanding of myself, very restricting, and often times very lonely. I hesitate so much I never act, and I worry so much about relationships that I don't make friends/boyfriends. Here are the things I wish I HAD DONE.
1. I wish I'd partied in High School. I didn't at ALL because I was so into this "good girl" role I'd created for myself, and even though I wanted to break out of it, it was like I couldn't, like I'd gotten myself stuck forever.
2. I wished I'd not gotten depressed. I mean, I don't have much control over that, but I spent most of Middle School and High School (and a god third of college) going through depression, and basically locking myself in my room and only leaving to go to school. It screwed me over socially and academically.
3. Related to the last one, I wish I'd gotten better grades. My grades throughout my life havand e varied from all C's to straight A+'s, depending on when I'm depressed/immobilized, depressed/perfectionistic, and when I'm normal. When I'm "normal I get all A's, but I'm actually happy about it. But my grade dips seriously ruined me academically. I had a 4.5 average before I got depressed in High School, and by the end I was at a 3.4, didn't care anymore, and only applied to 3 schools because I didn't care anymore.
4. I wish I'd worked in High School. I think it would have helped me to get more active.
5. I wish I'd made a lot more good friends. I made most of my serious friends in Middle School, and in High School I basically just went from one superficial relationship to another.
6. I wish I'd taken better care of my appearance in High School. Seriously, looking back I can't BELIEVE how I went to school. No wonder guys never hit on me then. I looked like a hot mess EVERY SINGLE DAY. Not that I don't now, but at least I know it, and I'm working on it XD Back then I didn't even realize it!
Anyways, real journal entry time:
GAAHH So excited about going to Sophia. I'll be leaving on March 1st, hopefully. I'm probably going to be taking Korean Air, since they're affordable and have good reviews. It looks like the ticket is only going to cost me $880! (that's almost half the cost of my last ticket to Japan)
I'm covering a lot of people's shifts from my old job (I'm still technically employed/have a time card, so I can still work there) to save up money. I'm also hoping to maybe do some babysitting over winter break to save up, and also sell a LOT of clothes & other stuff. I've also started planning what I'm bringing. I decided to bite the bullet and invest in one flat-rate box, which will cost me $50. But I'm going to FILL IT with vegan chocolate, Luna bars, hummus mix, pudding mix, vegan protein/vitamin powder, falafel mix and anything else that I love but am unlikely to find in Japan. Although expensive, I think I'll be grateful for it. There are some thing that I just can't live without, and I'm sure when I'm homesick it will be nice to have a small, edible dose of Amerrriicca to cheer me up.
Now, pickshaws! Blurry, so that you can't tell I'm breaking out! Hurrah!
San Francisco is SOOOO COLLLDDD right now!
Trying to be serious...
... and giving up.
Day Two: Nine things about yourself.
Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.
Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever)
Day Seven: Four turn offs.
Day Eight: Three turn ons.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life right now, and why.
Day Ten: One confession.
Honestly, there are very few things that I wish I'd never done. I'm great at NOT doing things. I've lived most of my life being extremely demanding of myself, very restricting, and often times very lonely. I hesitate so much I never act, and I worry so much about relationships that I don't make friends/boyfriends. Here are the things I wish I HAD DONE.
1. I wish I'd partied in High School. I didn't at ALL because I was so into this "good girl" role I'd created for myself, and even though I wanted to break out of it, it was like I couldn't, like I'd gotten myself stuck forever.
2. I wished I'd not gotten depressed. I mean, I don't have much control over that, but I spent most of Middle School and High School (and a god third of college) going through depression, and basically locking myself in my room and only leaving to go to school. It screwed me over socially and academically.
3. Related to the last one, I wish I'd gotten better grades. My grades throughout my life havand e varied from all C's to straight A+'s, depending on when I'm depressed/immobilized, depressed/perfectionistic, and when I'm normal. When I'm "normal I get all A's, but I'm actually happy about it. But my grade dips seriously ruined me academically. I had a 4.5 average before I got depressed in High School, and by the end I was at a 3.4, didn't care anymore, and only applied to 3 schools because I didn't care anymore.
4. I wish I'd worked in High School. I think it would have helped me to get more active.
5. I wish I'd made a lot more good friends. I made most of my serious friends in Middle School, and in High School I basically just went from one superficial relationship to another.
6. I wish I'd taken better care of my appearance in High School. Seriously, looking back I can't BELIEVE how I went to school. No wonder guys never hit on me then. I looked like a hot mess EVERY SINGLE DAY. Not that I don't now, but at least I know it, and I'm working on it XD Back then I didn't even realize it!
Anyways, real journal entry time:
GAAHH So excited about going to Sophia. I'll be leaving on March 1st, hopefully. I'm probably going to be taking Korean Air, since they're affordable and have good reviews. It looks like the ticket is only going to cost me $880! (that's almost half the cost of my last ticket to Japan)
I'm covering a lot of people's shifts from my old job (I'm still technically employed/have a time card, so I can still work there) to save up money. I'm also hoping to maybe do some babysitting over winter break to save up, and also sell a LOT of clothes & other stuff. I've also started planning what I'm bringing. I decided to bite the bullet and invest in one flat-rate box, which will cost me $50. But I'm going to FILL IT with vegan chocolate, Luna bars, hummus mix, pudding mix, vegan protein/vitamin powder, falafel mix and anything else that I love but am unlikely to find in Japan. Although expensive, I think I'll be grateful for it. There are some thing that I just can't live without, and I'm sure when I'm homesick it will be nice to have a small, edible dose of Amerrriicca to cheer me up.
Now, pickshaws! Blurry, so that you can't tell I'm breaking out! Hurrah!
San Francisco is SOOOO COLLLDDD right now!
Trying to be serious...
... and giving up.
