Popcorn in my belly
It's a weird sensation, I always feel like there's popcorn constantly popping in my stomach especially after I eat & when I'm lying perfectly still that's when she likes to move a lot. At least I know she's okay.
Well, I'm officially getting married on September 30th in Providence. The reception is going to be here in the back yard. I know everything is going to be really awesome. Kayla & Phil's sisters are in charge of decorations I pretty much don't have to do anything. Just look pretty. We still have to get our rings.
Phil has been living with me full time since about a month ago. I finally let him in. It's not as bad as I thought it would be initially. He's cut down on his smoking he's supposed to quit before the baby comes & so is his mom. Today I had everyone help me arrange the apartment so there's more room for baby stuff. Oh my God this is all still so creepy.
I started working over in the deli temporarily on the 1st of this month & I really don't like it. I haven't found my comfort zone. Tomorrow I go back to work after a relaxing 4 day vacation. I even rented a car & drove up to Maine by myself on Thursday. It was pretty fun. My last vacation & get away for a while. I don't get it, I can go anywhere by myself & be surrounded by people & be fine with it yet I have such bad anxiety at work. Some things are easier for me to do than others. I still do the things that aren't so easy.
Danny & Kayla supposedly went to Foxwoods tonight. I don't like gambling. I can't afford it. They do a lot of fun stuff. I envy them. That's nothing new. Me & Phil just domesticate. He stays up watching TV & I go to bed early. A lot of times I can't stay awake past midnight. Wow that's a change for me. I sleep a lot but I still can't get up in the morning. I wish I had more fun sometimes. I'm really starting to become a homebody.
Well, I'm officially getting married on September 30th in Providence. The reception is going to be here in the back yard. I know everything is going to be really awesome. Kayla & Phil's sisters are in charge of decorations I pretty much don't have to do anything. Just look pretty. We still have to get our rings.
Phil has been living with me full time since about a month ago. I finally let him in. It's not as bad as I thought it would be initially. He's cut down on his smoking he's supposed to quit before the baby comes & so is his mom. Today I had everyone help me arrange the apartment so there's more room for baby stuff. Oh my God this is all still so creepy.
I started working over in the deli temporarily on the 1st of this month & I really don't like it. I haven't found my comfort zone. Tomorrow I go back to work after a relaxing 4 day vacation. I even rented a car & drove up to Maine by myself on Thursday. It was pretty fun. My last vacation & get away for a while. I don't get it, I can go anywhere by myself & be surrounded by people & be fine with it yet I have such bad anxiety at work. Some things are easier for me to do than others. I still do the things that aren't so easy.
Danny & Kayla supposedly went to Foxwoods tonight. I don't like gambling. I can't afford it. They do a lot of fun stuff. I envy them. That's nothing new. Me & Phil just domesticate. He stays up watching TV & I go to bed early. A lot of times I can't stay awake past midnight. Wow that's a change for me. I sleep a lot but I still can't get up in the morning. I wish I had more fun sometimes. I'm really starting to become a homebody.