it never ends
I am so ready to be dead right now. I"m so tired of it all. It's the same thing every day. No change I try to make is real. I am a wasted life and a waste of life. Anyone any of you loved that died should be me. I should be dead, and they should be alive. If any of you killed me I would bear you no ill will. I would welcome it. The one thing I really want I can't have because there is just something wrong with me. Everyday is a reminder of that. I just want an end. I'm sorry everyone.