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So i had a little bout of depression tonight. reliving past mistakes always hurts... but it was worth it. I just want to thank gabi for caring. Like she said, i need to live in the present and the future and not the past, and if i look at the past as what its worth and realize i can't change it... maybe i'll be happier even when i think about it. Just thinking about it made my head hurt... and exposing my weaknesses and shortcomings... failures, to her makes me worry that she'll see something she really doesnt like and i'll lose her. because she cares, she is the greatest thing to happen to me for a while... and i don't think i can stand losing that. I'm better now, and i'm glad i talked about it, it really made me feel better about all of it... and about myself.
just don't leave me.
just don't leave me.