emo mood
I hate everyone.
ok, well i guess that's a little harsh, but still... i've realized that there are too many people who i can't talk to. i don't mean that i can't say hello to them and chitchat and stuff, but there aren't many people who i can really talk to, and those who i can i can't talk to fully. I can't tell them everything without them "brb"ing or getting bored or distracted. I can't talk to them without getting embarressed or thinking that they will judge me for the worse, or hate me, or push me away. I guess i'm a pessimist, or maybe i'm just paranoid, but there are things which i've done which i hate myself for, not recently, but still, i can't even talk about those things to barely anyone. I've always felt that i was an outward person, but really, i hide alot inside, and i hate myself for that too. I guess that's really why i'm writing this, i mean, i should just talk it over with someone, but i just can't, i don't know why, i just feel like people will judge me, or give me advice i don't want. i guess that's all i really have to say, i just wish there was one person who i could tell everything to, and not worry about them getting mad at me, or sad at me, or mad, or pushing me away, or hating me, or anything else. that's all i need. someone who i can relate to.
**edit-10:42**
i take it all back; there is one person.
ok, well i guess that's a little harsh, but still... i've realized that there are too many people who i can't talk to. i don't mean that i can't say hello to them and chitchat and stuff, but there aren't many people who i can really talk to, and those who i can i can't talk to fully. I can't tell them everything without them "brb"ing or getting bored or distracted. I can't talk to them without getting embarressed or thinking that they will judge me for the worse, or hate me, or push me away. I guess i'm a pessimist, or maybe i'm just paranoid, but there are things which i've done which i hate myself for, not recently, but still, i can't even talk about those things to barely anyone. I've always felt that i was an outward person, but really, i hide alot inside, and i hate myself for that too. I guess that's really why i'm writing this, i mean, i should just talk it over with someone, but i just can't, i don't know why, i just feel like people will judge me, or give me advice i don't want. i guess that's all i really have to say, i just wish there was one person who i could tell everything to, and not worry about them getting mad at me, or sad at me, or mad, or pushing me away, or hating me, or anything else. that's all i need. someone who i can relate to.
**edit-10:42**
i take it all back; there is one person.