babies?
i just saw a picture of a baby from new orleans that got rescued and sent somewhere safe- some hospital.
i had this realization.
i've always planned on having children. it's biology i guess, driving me- but i find myself thinking- that's what i'll teach my children. I saw some man yelling at his daughter at the zoo after she tripped. he yelled at her for not watching where she was going- but the poor girl was already crying from the fall she took. I would never do that to my children. there's no learning in that.
so i looked at this picture, and thought- babies are so small. they're really fragile. Maybe it does take two people to have a baby? not necessarily to raise one- but... well- the point is, i can't imagine ever being able to love someone, or having someone love me back with that intensity to have a child. Maybe they'll love me, or maybe i'll atleast think i love them. Children need love- even if their parents are divorced- they still need love.
i grow tired of things quickly. i know that about myself. i'm not really patient when it comes to people. I don't want to look at my child and hate what i see in them when it comes to their father.
what a weird thought to have right now. i dunno. makes sense, i guess.
i had this realization.
i've always planned on having children. it's biology i guess, driving me- but i find myself thinking- that's what i'll teach my children. I saw some man yelling at his daughter at the zoo after she tripped. he yelled at her for not watching where she was going- but the poor girl was already crying from the fall she took. I would never do that to my children. there's no learning in that.
so i looked at this picture, and thought- babies are so small. they're really fragile. Maybe it does take two people to have a baby? not necessarily to raise one- but... well- the point is, i can't imagine ever being able to love someone, or having someone love me back with that intensity to have a child. Maybe they'll love me, or maybe i'll atleast think i love them. Children need love- even if their parents are divorced- they still need love.
i grow tired of things quickly. i know that about myself. i'm not really patient when it comes to people. I don't want to look at my child and hate what i see in them when it comes to their father.
what a weird thought to have right now. i dunno. makes sense, i guess.