bored
brandon is passed out so why not write. awesome news definately moving out by this summer. pretty much have another job lined up. im ready to start the next chapter of my life. ready to get away from home.
this semester needs to hurry up. its just...akward. it didn't have to be. but it is. does really bother me. id really like to just move past it and be like.. so we dated we have class now, lets just be civil. i'd like that. jus be aqantices (i cant spell) or something like that. I'm over it ya know. you learn from your mistakes and move on. i have done that and i feel so much better about myself then i did before. granted i dont have the best self esteem but im more positive then i have ever been. (lol dwelling on my weight is something that i will do for the rest of my life)
life is too short to be hung up on the past and the what if's. i mean i realize i pretty much hated someone for no reason, id like to talk to her one day about it and just get it off my chest. i finally just like the hate go and it feels amazing. I had a lot of bitterness built up inside for a long time but i let that go too. memories are part of life and will happen but will eventully fade and be replaced with better ones.'ive changed alot and im proud of myself. without brandon helping me i dont think i would have made it. i appreciate him and love him so much.
enough emotional junk. so funny thing i saw cj the other week and it was really cool. we chatted for a while and caught up. was really cool. he hasnt changed much in 4 or so years except he grew up alot and im happy he did. brandon wants to meet him, which is cool. maybe they can be friends im sure they both could talk about cars and junk like that. lol.
well yeah. i gota wake my baby up soon so im out. love you boo boo!!
this semester needs to hurry up. its just...akward. it didn't have to be. but it is. does really bother me. id really like to just move past it and be like.. so we dated we have class now, lets just be civil. i'd like that. jus be aqantices (i cant spell) or something like that. I'm over it ya know. you learn from your mistakes and move on. i have done that and i feel so much better about myself then i did before. granted i dont have the best self esteem but im more positive then i have ever been. (lol dwelling on my weight is something that i will do for the rest of my life)
life is too short to be hung up on the past and the what if's. i mean i realize i pretty much hated someone for no reason, id like to talk to her one day about it and just get it off my chest. i finally just like the hate go and it feels amazing. I had a lot of bitterness built up inside for a long time but i let that go too. memories are part of life and will happen but will eventully fade and be replaced with better ones.'ive changed alot and im proud of myself. without brandon helping me i dont think i would have made it. i appreciate him and love him so much.
enough emotional junk. so funny thing i saw cj the other week and it was really cool. we chatted for a while and caught up. was really cool. he hasnt changed much in 4 or so years except he grew up alot and im happy he did. brandon wants to meet him, which is cool. maybe they can be friends im sure they both could talk about cars and junk like that. lol.
well yeah. i gota wake my baby up soon so im out. love you boo boo!!