Women just let me down.
I think I may hate my ex, "J".
She left for the summer in June, she came back late Sept. She came back distant as fuck. She first blamed jet lag, and being tired from moving.
We officially broke up October 10th, but she wanted to before that. And she wanted to do it textually. She was dating someone VERY soon after. We go about 2 weeks without talking, then one of her 'friends' tells me about an event in California that she was at. J got naked with another man in a bedroom. She also tells me that she's been seen making out with new guy. I confront J with these. She finally tells me that that happened. We basically go all term without talking. Then...
We had sex December 10th. Well we tried, but I was much nervous, and didn't really perform all that well. She tells me she's cheated on her new guy with other men already.
During the winter break, she sent me photos of her naughty parts and asked for some of me. I thought that perhaps she wanted to have some more Aaron. It appears I was somewhat wrong. She said she almost invited me to join her and her mom to gamble at the beach with them. But that didn't happen.
We hung out this last Friday, and we just hung out. Had food, went shopping, that's really it. After talking about our past, she asks me if I want to know how men she's had sex with. I think about it, and I don't think I wanted to know the answer, but curiosity got the best of me. I knew of the 4 including me, the 1 during spring break (a recent relevation) and the 3 since me. I guess 8. I guess 9. I tell her to just tell me. She says 11. She went from 4 to 11 in about 9 months. 8 to 9 of which were while she was seeing someone. I guess the first one right, the dude in Cali that she 'just was naked with'. I learn the other 2 were during the summer. I correctly guess the second one as well, a co-worker that she told me repeatedly that she had no interest in. I also kind of correctly guess the third. I ask if it was a dude from a bar in Novato, 45 mins from where she was staying. I don't know the dude, and I don't think she did either.
I feel used. I feel empty. I feel hollow. I feel angry. I feel depressed. I feel lonely. I don't know how to feel.
I would try and cut ties with her altogether, but before I learned of these new revelations, I asked her to a concert, Les Claypool. I bought the tickets. I think she'll stay the night after the show. I regret buying the tickets. I do not think I'll speak to her after the 20th. (the show)
I had a huge crush on this girl "M", kind of starting from the summer. I didn't pursue her cause I was with someone. Turns out she's freaking awesome.
We've been talking since the breakup, we went on 2-3 dates, I got to kiss her. She left for cali for the winter. I sent her a gift, an "It's Always Sunny" gift, and a funny x-mas card.
She just got back, she tells me she wants us to be 'strictly platonic'. I don't know why, as last I had heard, she liked me.
Obviously she didn't get the memo about dating, where you date someone to see how if it works, then if not, dump em.
Nonetheless, she said she'd still be down to hang tomorrow. Whatever.
I'm very upset with women as a whole. This isn't the lowest I've been, but happiness is fleeting. It's hard not to think about these events, it's hard to have these thoughts leave my head. I can't help but think about it. I need... escape....
I'm just so upset.
She left for the summer in June, she came back late Sept. She came back distant as fuck. She first blamed jet lag, and being tired from moving.
We officially broke up October 10th, but she wanted to before that. And she wanted to do it textually. She was dating someone VERY soon after. We go about 2 weeks without talking, then one of her 'friends' tells me about an event in California that she was at. J got naked with another man in a bedroom. She also tells me that she's been seen making out with new guy. I confront J with these. She finally tells me that that happened. We basically go all term without talking. Then...
We had sex December 10th. Well we tried, but I was much nervous, and didn't really perform all that well. She tells me she's cheated on her new guy with other men already.
During the winter break, she sent me photos of her naughty parts and asked for some of me. I thought that perhaps she wanted to have some more Aaron. It appears I was somewhat wrong. She said she almost invited me to join her and her mom to gamble at the beach with them. But that didn't happen.
We hung out this last Friday, and we just hung out. Had food, went shopping, that's really it. After talking about our past, she asks me if I want to know how men she's had sex with. I think about it, and I don't think I wanted to know the answer, but curiosity got the best of me. I knew of the 4 including me, the 1 during spring break (a recent relevation) and the 3 since me. I guess 8. I guess 9. I tell her to just tell me. She says 11. She went from 4 to 11 in about 9 months. 8 to 9 of which were while she was seeing someone. I guess the first one right, the dude in Cali that she 'just was naked with'. I learn the other 2 were during the summer. I correctly guess the second one as well, a co-worker that she told me repeatedly that she had no interest in. I also kind of correctly guess the third. I ask if it was a dude from a bar in Novato, 45 mins from where she was staying. I don't know the dude, and I don't think she did either.
I feel used. I feel empty. I feel hollow. I feel angry. I feel depressed. I feel lonely. I don't know how to feel.
I would try and cut ties with her altogether, but before I learned of these new revelations, I asked her to a concert, Les Claypool. I bought the tickets. I think she'll stay the night after the show. I regret buying the tickets. I do not think I'll speak to her after the 20th. (the show)
I had a huge crush on this girl "M", kind of starting from the summer. I didn't pursue her cause I was with someone. Turns out she's freaking awesome.
We've been talking since the breakup, we went on 2-3 dates, I got to kiss her. She left for cali for the winter. I sent her a gift, an "It's Always Sunny" gift, and a funny x-mas card.
She just got back, she tells me she wants us to be 'strictly platonic'. I don't know why, as last I had heard, she liked me.
Obviously she didn't get the memo about dating, where you date someone to see how if it works, then if not, dump em.
Nonetheless, she said she'd still be down to hang tomorrow. Whatever.
I'm very upset with women as a whole. This isn't the lowest I've been, but happiness is fleeting. It's hard not to think about these events, it's hard to have these thoughts leave my head. I can't help but think about it. I need... escape....
I'm just so upset.