through the dark

[arewn17]

my life is in a pile on the floor. i'm traveling through the dark without a clue where i'm going. i wish i could have been all the surprises she thought i was. i don't even know what to say to her how to approach her. i know i want to run to her and hold her. the worst thing is knowing you failed someone so entirely to know that you could have done so many things differently but you didn't, to know that it's all your fault. i can't blame anyone else for the state my life is in. i can't say i didn't have people who cared who were supportive who hell just put up with a lot of shit from me.

so you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
now i'm here to stay
love can be so boring

nothing's quite the same now
i just say your name now

but it's not so bad
you're only the best i ever had
you don't want me back
you're just the best i ever had

so you stole my world
now i'm just a phony
remembering the girl
leaves me down and lonely

send it in a letter
make yourself feel better

but it's not so bad
you're only the best i ever had
you don't need me back
you're just the best i ever had

and it may take some time to
patch me up inside
but i can't take it so i
run away and hide
and i may find in time that
you were always right
you're always right

so you sailed away
into a grey sky morning
now i'm here to stay
love can be so boring

what was it you wanted
could it be i'm haunted

but it's not so bad
you're only the best i ever had
you're just the best i ever had
the best i ever had
the best i ever
~vertical horizon