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I hate having to apologize to my son.
It makes me cry even more.
I feel the worst I think I've ever felt.
Because of me, my son won't see his dad just about every day of the week like he use to.
I can't stop crying ... it's horrible and I can't concentrate on anything.
Why did this have to happen?
I always pictured myself having a baby, but I've never been able to picture my wedding.
All this just proves my thoughts right.
I mean, if the man I want to spend the rest of my life with can't love me, then how am I supposed to make someone else happy.
Besides ... I don't want another person.
Jacob only has one dad. And he's a great dad who loves him more than anyother man ever could.
I just don't know how to do this alone.
I never had to and I never wanted to.
I don't know raising my son or having a family without him.
It makes me cry even more.
I feel the worst I think I've ever felt.
Because of me, my son won't see his dad just about every day of the week like he use to.
I can't stop crying ... it's horrible and I can't concentrate on anything.
Why did this have to happen?
I always pictured myself having a baby, but I've never been able to picture my wedding.
All this just proves my thoughts right.
I mean, if the man I want to spend the rest of my life with can't love me, then how am I supposed to make someone else happy.
Besides ... I don't want another person.
Jacob only has one dad. And he's a great dad who loves him more than anyother man ever could.
I just don't know how to do this alone.
I never had to and I never wanted to.
I don't know raising my son or having a family without him.