Happy Birthday cousin!! you're 20!!
my room is just about empty ...
only 2 things left on the wall ...
there's holes in the walls from where I hung my memories.
I've shoved my entire life into boxes ...
... we're re-locating ...
I'm afraid to sleep in there ...
I feel like it's a strangers room
Today was great but filled w/sadness here and there
One of my bestest friends I've ever had is hurting right now!
Today's intentions were to make her smile ...
she had a rough night ...
I succeeded ... till I got home
I didn't mean to hurt her ... I love her
There's been too much to think about today ...
my mind wanders ...
I thought about what I want and need
I thought about ... my mom
... I feel so horrible
I hate the feeling you get when you like someone ...
not the way they make you feel ... but the way you worry.
Do they like me too? Do I bother them? Do I come off as annoying? Do they see me as a waste? Are they able to see the good in me? Are they thinking of me? Do they want to pick up the phone and call me? If I call them ... will they answer? Will they smile when they see my name on the caller ID?
but see ... I think this way even AFTER he calls ...
I think I'm afraid ...
after what happened w/mr rockstar ...
I'm not to sure of myself
I wish someone was here for me to fall asleep next to ... anyone ... Tomorrow's another day right .. but foes that mean I have to wait through wed before things feel better???
only 2 things left on the wall ...
there's holes in the walls from where I hung my memories.
I've shoved my entire life into boxes ...
... we're re-locating ...
I'm afraid to sleep in there ...
I feel like it's a strangers room
Today was great but filled w/sadness here and there
One of my bestest friends I've ever had is hurting right now!
Today's intentions were to make her smile ...
she had a rough night ...
I succeeded ... till I got home
I didn't mean to hurt her ... I love her
There's been too much to think about today ...
my mind wanders ...
I thought about what I want and need
I thought about ... my mom
... I feel so horrible
I hate the feeling you get when you like someone ...
not the way they make you feel ... but the way you worry.
Do they like me too? Do I bother them? Do I come off as annoying? Do they see me as a waste? Are they able to see the good in me? Are they thinking of me? Do they want to pick up the phone and call me? If I call them ... will they answer? Will they smile when they see my name on the caller ID?
but see ... I think this way even AFTER he calls ...
I think I'm afraid ...
after what happened w/mr rockstar ...
I'm not to sure of myself
I wish someone was here for me to fall asleep next to ... anyone ... Tomorrow's another day right .. but foes that mean I have to wait through wed before things feel better???