shitty first day ...

[aresmorsangelus]

I was supposed to go to school today.
I didn't.

I woke up at 6:30 to get my laundry.
I felt dizzy on my way there and back.
When I came upstairs, I lay down for a minute.
Thinking my boyfriend wrote me an e-mail last night, I figured since it was some-what of a big day, I'll read it to make my day go a little better.
He didn't.

So I went to have a shower thinking it would help me with my dizziness.
It didn't.

I went dowstairs for breakfast thinking that would help me with my dizziness.
Guess what? It didn't.

I almost fell because I was so dizzy this morning, and my mom's first reaction was she thought I was faking to get out of school.
I've never missed the first day of school. Why would I start now?

I went upstairs in tears because I was feeling sooooo dizzy that I thought I was going to be sick.
I was.

I went to bed, and cried there for a few more reasons than just feeling dizzy, but that was the biggest one.

I started getting really cold. ... Again.
I was afraid Saturday would repeat itself.
I got really scared.
Finally I fell asleep.

I had fucked up dreams.
The first;
I had a dream I had heart disease and a brain tumor at 17 yrs old. I called my boyfriend, we were both scared to death. I think I woke up crying a bit, i'm not entirely sure.

The second;
I set the restaraunt "the glen" on fire.

and the others I can't really remember right now.

In total I've probably been awake for 2 hours.

Moral of the story is, I was dizzy 2 days ago, I was dizzy yesterday, I'm dizzy today, I should see a doctor.

Bye.