I have nothing to say to you...

[aresmorsangelus]

Being Somebody doesn't make you anybody anymore!

and the people said "oh, she's not beautiful at all." and they took her out of the beautiful house and they drove her into the street, and she went away and never came back."

life, and death. energy and peace.
if i stop today, it was still worth it. even the terrible mistakes that i have made and would have unmade if i could, the pains that burned and scarred my soul. it was worth it. for having been allowed to walk where i have walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it, and above.

you killed me tonight. you did. you turned me inside out and burned me. i am unfolding.
i am being stripped of my own skin, piece by peice. flesh, hair, eyes, oh such beautiful eyes. sad eyes. pained eyes. empty eyes.
you pained me. i am refolding.
what am i to do?
for the first time we're fighting. over something so small.
this isn't your fault. no. it's mine. of course. it's always mine. so why should i stay? tell me, why the fuck should i stay? you say you love me. yes, you do. "more than i will ever know" apparently. but if you don't remember, let me refresh, you didn't write that song for me. no, no you didn't.

alone. typical weekday.
why?
why should i brother?
why should i brother with you?
why should i bother with me, or anybody?
why?
i'm tired of all this bull shit.
so tired.
i give up.
it's not about anyone else this time, it's about me.
i've wanted to do this a thousand times. everyday. you know that. why should i stay any longer?
tell me, maybe i'll listen.
maybe.