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So things are pretty good. I just fill my off time with work now to get things to move faster. I guess it's working because Thanksgiving is next week! and the semester is only about a month from being over.
As per usual I'm really excited about Christmas. I'm half way to all presents being shopped for. I practiced voice today too (so as not to embarass myself when I get home and everyone asks me to sing stuff). I was a little hesitant at first b/c of the housemates, but then I was like "what the hell. I have a degree in this anyway so it's not like they can say anything." And it was great! It's still there, a little rusty since it's been about a year since I've done anything "real". I'm definitely going to look into a choir wherever I end up working this summer. I miss it a lot and I feel better when I sing :) [i know so many of my friends are saying "of course you do!" right now]
And I sort of made a little pact with myself to keep in shape (voice and otherwise), to keep the balance alive. I feel good about myself even if my life isn't quite where I'm most content with it. I thought the recent bit of trauma would really get me, and it hurts of course, but I must have done something right because I can feel that I'll be just fine. [I'm "emotionally raw", as I've been calling it (anger,hurt, sad), but at least I'm sure it wasn't because of anything I did to myself or someone else for that matter. I have several misgivings about this recent guy and our history because of how he left things. That part is sad, but I know in my core that I was 100%. So, what ya gonna do?] Oh, and there's always the fun of the rebound guy ;) lol
Anyway, I'm looking forward to the holiday break, and the end of this semester (it's getting pretty tired). I end up working a bunch more hours at the store, but it'll be worth it in the end. At least there's plenty to do! I'm not great at the idle hands thing.
And although I pretty much hate the snow, I am hoping to get back home to some of the old school gang. I miss those guys! Plus I could seriously use a good beer in the circle of some real and good peeps. I have a lot of great friends, and I know how lucky I am to be able to say that. There is always that something about kids from the hometown though; they know your roots. [Not to leave out some of the friends I've met through the years, b/c some of those guys are like family!]
Eh. I'm a "realist", which some people misconstrue as being negative, but it keeps me open minded and grounded. And I guess it lets me keep the hope too.
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As per usual I'm really excited about Christmas. I'm half way to all presents being shopped for. I practiced voice today too (so as not to embarass myself when I get home and everyone asks me to sing stuff). I was a little hesitant at first b/c of the housemates, but then I was like "what the hell. I have a degree in this anyway so it's not like they can say anything." And it was great! It's still there, a little rusty since it's been about a year since I've done anything "real". I'm definitely going to look into a choir wherever I end up working this summer. I miss it a lot and I feel better when I sing :) [i know so many of my friends are saying "of course you do!" right now]
And I sort of made a little pact with myself to keep in shape (voice and otherwise), to keep the balance alive. I feel good about myself even if my life isn't quite where I'm most content with it. I thought the recent bit of trauma would really get me, and it hurts of course, but I must have done something right because I can feel that I'll be just fine. [I'm "emotionally raw", as I've been calling it (anger,hurt, sad), but at least I'm sure it wasn't because of anything I did to myself or someone else for that matter. I have several misgivings about this recent guy and our history because of how he left things. That part is sad, but I know in my core that I was 100%. So, what ya gonna do?] Oh, and there's always the fun of the rebound guy ;) lol
Anyway, I'm looking forward to the holiday break, and the end of this semester (it's getting pretty tired). I end up working a bunch more hours at the store, but it'll be worth it in the end. At least there's plenty to do! I'm not great at the idle hands thing.
And although I pretty much hate the snow, I am hoping to get back home to some of the old school gang. I miss those guys! Plus I could seriously use a good beer in the circle of some real and good peeps. I have a lot of great friends, and I know how lucky I am to be able to say that. There is always that something about kids from the hometown though; they know your roots. [Not to leave out some of the friends I've met through the years, b/c some of those guys are like family!]
Eh. I'm a "realist", which some people misconstrue as being negative, but it keeps me open minded and grounded. And I guess it lets me keep the hope too.
\mm/