replacing.
I think life is all about replacing things, one vice for another.
Someone for someone else, some goal for another, the replacements often
times seem like upgrades. Then we discover it's just as bad or worse
than what we had before, but not all the time, every once in a while we
stumble across something or someone that we would never think of
replacing in a million years. This vice of replacing things in my life
never ceases to amaze me... but this time i hope ive found the things that ARE upgrades and not meager slim pickings...lol
I know it's coming, the changes are coming, the replacement is eminent, but it's still hard bracing for a blow when you have idea when it's coming... It does me no good to worry, in fact it only can make things worse... Granted I haven't thought about my
education as a hearty blow as of recently, but to many things I've
fucked up on in the past seem like they're catching up with me. I knew
one day I'd have to trade this in for something else I just didn't
know for what..
Then there are things I want to hold onto for a while... And usually
this would be cause for concern,worrying to much about what i have and not enjoying it, but this time it's just trudging along like an adorable little choo choo, finally some other worry is taking it's place and now even emotions find themselves retreating and trading
places....
I don't wanna sell myself short this time, I've got all this pent up
awesomeness that can lead me no where except up....it can only help and not hurt.
ive replaced so many things in the last couple of months, i think its
more than enough to keep me in a stationary place for a long time... and frankly i think thats perfect...
im not gonna worry to much about school, i still believe in the fact that things like this happen for a reason....everything happens for reasons unknown, and paths are set for me, all i have to do is work myself up enough to walk down em...
ahi vamos...its all a sludgy lumpy mess sometimes.
Someone for someone else, some goal for another, the replacements often
times seem like upgrades. Then we discover it's just as bad or worse
than what we had before, but not all the time, every once in a while we
stumble across something or someone that we would never think of
replacing in a million years. This vice of replacing things in my life
never ceases to amaze me... but this time i hope ive found the things that ARE upgrades and not meager slim pickings...lol
I know it's coming, the changes are coming, the replacement is eminent, but it's still hard bracing for a blow when you have idea when it's coming... It does me no good to worry, in fact it only can make things worse... Granted I haven't thought about my
education as a hearty blow as of recently, but to many things I've
fucked up on in the past seem like they're catching up with me. I knew
one day I'd have to trade this in for something else I just didn't
know for what..
Then there are things I want to hold onto for a while... And usually
this would be cause for concern,worrying to much about what i have and not enjoying it, but this time it's just trudging along like an adorable little choo choo, finally some other worry is taking it's place and now even emotions find themselves retreating and trading
places....
I don't wanna sell myself short this time, I've got all this pent up
awesomeness that can lead me no where except up....it can only help and not hurt.
ive replaced so many things in the last couple of months, i think its
more than enough to keep me in a stationary place for a long time... and frankly i think thats perfect...
im not gonna worry to much about school, i still believe in the fact that things like this happen for a reason....everything happens for reasons unknown, and paths are set for me, all i have to do is work myself up enough to walk down em...
ahi vamos...its all a sludgy lumpy mess sometimes.