rain..
its been raining like crazy and this weekend were the only sunny days, i loved it, in love with boots and stepping in puddles, with snuggling under blankets while thunder droned in the background.its been lovely.
its been a good couple of weeks. i cannot complain. and its not about being complacent, but rather about being comfortable, about having things and people to look forward to during the week and its nice, its good to look forward to things and still have that little flutter in your tummy when you think of someone in particular and i find that feeling lasting longer than it usually lasts.....and that makes me appreciate it even more..
in any case,any kind of doubt that finds its way bubbling up inside me gets tossed to the side...i find myself getting lost in music and sleeping comfortably....in small things like new bags and delicious yogurt combinations....and its petty i know, but nice....i dont want to mix it up, eventually it will mix itself up, slowly and efficiently. it always does.
but for right now it seems like its falling into place, so many encouraging things, so much good. i feel greedy......its not a calm before a storm. the storm has passed, i wiped it away and this is my new slate, this is like a quasi-new start and i'll be damned if im gonna fuck it up easily. Im trying to stay here, in this comfort zone... in this loveliness.
i like that people make me happy right now, that new relationships with new friends and making stronger bonds with people make my life so much richer right now and that makes the relationships i already had, much stronger...
i know it all sounds a little cheesy, but every once in a while its nice to gush over things and feel warm and gooey on the inside. :)
its been a good couple of weeks. i cannot complain. and its not about being complacent, but rather about being comfortable, about having things and people to look forward to during the week and its nice, its good to look forward to things and still have that little flutter in your tummy when you think of someone in particular and i find that feeling lasting longer than it usually lasts.....and that makes me appreciate it even more..
in any case,any kind of doubt that finds its way bubbling up inside me gets tossed to the side...i find myself getting lost in music and sleeping comfortably....in small things like new bags and delicious yogurt combinations....and its petty i know, but nice....i dont want to mix it up, eventually it will mix itself up, slowly and efficiently. it always does.
but for right now it seems like its falling into place, so many encouraging things, so much good. i feel greedy......its not a calm before a storm. the storm has passed, i wiped it away and this is my new slate, this is like a quasi-new start and i'll be damned if im gonna fuck it up easily. Im trying to stay here, in this comfort zone... in this loveliness.
i like that people make me happy right now, that new relationships with new friends and making stronger bonds with people make my life so much richer right now and that makes the relationships i already had, much stronger...
i know it all sounds a little cheesy, but every once in a while its nice to gush over things and feel warm and gooey on the inside. :)